end of samoa..humm..

first of all, due to some stuff, I wasn't able to watch the Survivor Finale on time! to think I'm like, so behind this, its really sad! >.<

and I haven't read Amy's blog to prevent spoilers that might affect my post XD

anyway... this season ended with with Ratalie winning the game! like, the former Galu tribe must be the stupidest survivor players ever. they lost to the mere 4 people from ex-Foa foa, they always made the wrong decisions and stuff *sigh*. Honestly, the only reason I'm watching this season could be Russell (also, the super cute John XD), the evil one, not the I-choose-comfort-over-tarp-stupid-Russell. Like, seriously, he played the best game ever, yep, probably in the history of survivor. He dominated right from the first day he's in the game, he made ALL the decisions there. and the ex-Galu tribe made it way too easy for him due to their stupidity (they make me sick!). Seems like the Survivor game doesn't really rely on how good you are in playing the game. its just a social game, its nothing business, its ALL personal.

and the sock issue really made my day. Russell bringing some socks for Jaison and burning them AGAIN, lol, I reaaally LOVE that guy! love it love it love it!!!!! and seriously, I was kinda surprised with some weird questions thrown during the judging time. "bro date"? wth is that? and Eric was practically giving a sucky speech about integrity or whatever, like effing seriously, its SURVIVOR dude! grow the freaking out of your emotional coccoon!

though, I kinda think that one of Russell's biggest fault was not bringing Shambo to the final 3, I think he'd win if he's up against Shambo. also, I think Russell was too overconfident and cocky, that he didn't realize part of social game (which he proclaimed his was a great one) also include making people to like you / prevent people from hating you too much. and I commend Natalie for letting Russell do all the dirty work and let people hate him, which is a great strategy in Survivor, because love has the power of gaining you a vote for 1million dollars :P

all in all, its a nice season. I didn't get someone I'd root for in the final (like Ozzy, JT or the old man in Gabon), so I didn't really feel anything about the winner. I'm kinda still too pissed off at how ex-Galus were so stupid they made it way too freaking easy and predictable. me wanted MORE drama!!

anyway, another great season of survivor is coming soon. though, I don't really like the all-stars thing, because everyone has quite known everyone and all that. though, the theme Heroes vs Villains is really catchy.

Asyura & Mullet's gone!!!

hi hi, just now I had some bubur asyura aka asyura porridge, which celebrated the Awal Muharram. Its cooked by lots of volunteers (I didn't join in though, too many cooks spoil the broth, no? XD)

Lemme tell you a bit of history of bubur asyura. Its dated back to Nabi Nuh aka Noah's time, where after the huge flood, the ark landed, and all the survivors (love! XD) shared their food, so they collected all various of ingredients and cook them, and had the meal together~

anyway, the interesting part is, the porridge that's cooked just now was kinda weird to my eye. here, I took a picture of a "slice" of it (yup, its porridge and it can be sliced!)
ok, the interesting parts:
first of all, the color, its brown! compared to the bubur asyura that I'm familiar with, its supposed to be kinda white-ish. this is the bubur asyura that I've always eaten:

2nd, the texture, its reaaally solid and not very much like porridge (like the pic above), therefore, it could be slice, and its way of serving is really it being sliced and been given out. reaaaally Weiiird!

3rd, the taste! its super sweet with a huge boom of herbs and spices, maybe too much for my taste, but its still a good change of taste.

aah~ I really miss the bubur asyura that I'm familiar with~~

anyway, a quick review on Survivor:Samoa (spoilers-ridden!!)
1. Shambo hair issue

seriously, keeping a mullet since 1986? thats the year I was born! how scary and disgusting that fact is! and when Jeff asked her about the hair, she kinda answered something like, "oh you don't change PERFECTION" I totally went WTFudge!!?? also, its funny when Russell made fun of the hair by saying the mullet is so disgusting and bushy that Shambo could stash her food in her hair (banana, pieces of coconuts and peanuts! lol), and I seriously grimaced at the sight Brett massaging Shambo's head by the campfire, seriously, who would wanna get their hands into a dirty, never-been-washed-for-a-month, smelly, huge, curly, mullet??

2. Challenges
love them both: reward and immunity. the coconut game was cool! and the counting stuff one was taken from Survivor: Guatemala I think.

3. Immunity and tribal council!
Brett won! yay for the only remaining ex-Galu member~ Shambo been voted off, all proud and mullet. She didn't even blame ex-Foa foa's blindsiding her, so naive! and Russell keeping the idol as souvenir~ lol, I really hate to love him, but he's reaaally a great survivor player. I won't be surprised if he won, or he could get over-confident and get de-throned.

oh, and LOTS of people were wondering about when would the "family members" reward would be? and where's the car challenge? I really wanna see if the Survivor car curse is broken this season!
anyway, thats all for now~ can't wait for the FINALE! 2 days to go!!!!!

my dirty little toaster

okay, I want to bitch again today. seriously, I really don't want any reason to bitch anymore!

today, I had to stick my hands on some yucky chunk of whateverness that's been sticking to my sandwich toaster.
the story goes like this, yesterday, I wanted to make my favorite toast, bread + margarine + sugar and toasted to perfection, mm~~ so, when I opened the sandwich toaster, to my surprise, there are some unidentified stuff sticking and crusting to the toaster, rendering it useless on toasting my toaster. I don't really know what the stuff really is. I think it looked kinda like cheese + chocolate. and when I asked, no one really knows who did it, and what stuff that was. so, its really hard to get the thing off the metal toaster. I had to leave them in some water for a day or so! and I had to scrub that thing off today. and I had to use the frying pan to heat up my sandwich instead. ( I wanted to take pictures of that thing, but felt too irritated to do so)

I'm not really a stingy person. I don't have any problem with everyone using my toaster, but I'd like it to be clean whenever I wanna use it. my idea is, if I own something, its supposed to be a convenience to me. I know its just a little shabby toaster, but it reflects your respect towards other people and their belongings. then again, human are forgetful and imperfect, so I can forgive this. but seriously! YUCKY CHUNK OF WHATEVERNESS!! who won't get mad if those things stuck to their toaster??? (and its not their own doing).

freaking bengang

Title taken from my friend, roha's blog: http://rohayajohari.blogspot.com/2009/12/bengang.html hehe.

seriously, I'm in an irritable state right now. most likely PMS (lol).
anyway, its not that I'm feeling all down and depressed always. I'm quite happy actually. However, when every things that I don't really like happen, no matter how miniaturely small it is, I reeeaaaally get SUPER irritated. even with those little things that I don't like, but I could tolerate previously. I dunno, they just really get on my nerves! I hate it, its tiring and its giving me frowns! Its just I can't help it, most of the times I'll snap out of it and go like, "omg, what am I getting mad for? its just "...." (rational talk + deep breaths), but that bitch's really annoying I wanna push her off a cliff! (emotional talk)". Well, something like that.

I can't get mad openly, I'm not an expressive person anyway. and if I do get mad, I'd be labeled as the bitch who is always angry at everything. so much for freedom of speech! :( nope, you can't say anything, even if its for freaking goodness because if you freaking did, you'd freaking hurt some freaking people's freaking feeling!!! @#$%f^&*()u(*&^%$#c$%^&*()(%k$!!!!!!!
ah, really really sorry everyone! >.<

C'est Moi!! L'amour~~!!

I just opened Sorority Life game today, and found out that there's a new glam, the Christian Louboutin C'est Moi ankle boots are there!! in HOT pink! but those cost brownie points (which is totally hard to get) in the game, and an arm & a leg in real life (huhu!!)
aren't they the hottest thing EVER? gosh, they're just too lustful!


I'm so totally into ankle boots right now, but its SO effing hard to shop for any decent boots in Kuching >.<

Also, that reminds me, I watched the Legend of Chun Li a while ago and fell totally in love with the golden ankle boots that she was wearing (that could be the highlight of the movie, the rest wasn't really that good :P). I don't really have the pics and you can't really see them clearly here. Though Kristin Kreuk admitted that those were spray-painted! but they're still hot! lol

In search of a bar of happiness

gosh, seriously! where did all the crunchies in Kuching go?? I've been searching for it all over the place! and finally, had to go to Sarawak Plaza to get it, so I went and bought THREE of 'em!!


SO freaking happy! shiawase! joyeux! gembira! glück! felicità! YAY~

Its no rocket science - OBVIOUSLY NOT

hi hi, its been a long time since I last updated this blog. Now, I just wanna review Survivor: Samoa episode 12. (oh, survivor, you've never disappointed me in the drama part)

First of all, spoiler alert if you haven't watched the 12th episode.

Well, then, the rewards challenge, but in this episode, they had the survivor auction, one of my most favorite "challenge" ever. Its the only time you'll see people pay $500 for a burger and some fries. Anyway, some people had good stuff to eat, but Shambo got some really disgusting stuff Jeff said its "Survivor-styled spaghetti" , I can't really remember what it was, I was too busy getting disgusted at the sight of it, but its something disgusting garnished with parmesan *gross much!*. and John, oh John, why didn't you share your apple pie?? An apple pie could cost you a vote in Survivor, everyone knows that! (although in his interview, he stated that the scene was edited somehow and everyone has said "take the pie" coz most of them have eaten, so I cant help feeling disappointed when a bit of drama was spoiled for me XD)

So yeah, then the immunity challenge, Jaison won (obviously), with the advantage he bought from the auction, it would be really really shocking if he lost. Natalie surprised me though, didn't really think she'd hold on longer than the other guys! and again, John, oh John, why did you just let go of the rope oh-so-easily, who knows if he tried to hold on longer, he might get the immunity and would've avoided an elimination.


Oh, lets not forget how cuckoo things get with Shambo and her freakishly edited dream scene. Like seriously, having clairvoyant dreams that "always" are right? guess what, Shambo, Survivor has proven you're wrong. Somehow it reminds me of the feeling of ridiculousness that Coach brought in Survivor: Tocantins. Can't believe the length the tv editors would go to make those scenes looked like they're from a horror movie, thats hilarious! and boiling her "only source of happiness for the past 29 days" for 2 freaking hours??

Besides, everything from the laws science, logic, humanity and morale disintegrated when it comes to Survivor.

And then, the tribal council -> John voted off. No surprises there. Russell always got what he wants, he's probably the best puppet master in the history of Survivor. I can't believe John would trust everything he said and I really hate the other players, like the former Galu tribe. oh, how stupid they look. One nudge from Russell, they all went crumbling down, bowing to his will. Its probably started when they voted Eric off, it showed how stupid and fragile the Galu tribe was, they probably just had the physical strength to win all the challenges before the merge. I'm wishing SO hard they're plucked off one by one. Like, I don't even remember who they are!


oh John, I really love him. He's smart and he's strong (and super cute lol), so he's probably one of the biggest threat to the others in the camp, and I think he's too eager to move further in the game and to disclose too much information to Russell, thats his mistake. Its something everyone who watched Survivor would noticed, like, if you're too dumb, you're voted out, you're too clever, you're out, you're too weak, you're out, you're too strong, you're out etc etc.

Anyways, can't wait to see the next episode. Seems like the snake might get his head cut off!

Bones and Blood

hi there, exam was over last thursday. I was wounded, heartbroken, crestfallen, whatever word you wanna say to describe a HUGE MAJOR disappointment of myself. the memories of the exam kept on rewinding (felt like I was stuck watching re-runs of seriously bad movies). like, I'd see the patient's face, the examiners', my faults, thinking "why did I do that? why didn't I do this? why did I say that? why didn't I say this, etc etc" summary of all -> GIGANTIC REGRET

probably I'm suffering PTSD. its a very terrible traumatic feeling. the whole thing brought me down, i KNOW i did terribly in the exams and i fear of the consequences. and death is not an option. anyways, i KNOW there's nothing i can do to change anything of the past. I cant control it, and that tortures me. and I do know that mourning over it can't change anything so I'd have to choose paths that would benefit me the best in whatever it is in the future.
anyway, we're starting Orthopedics today. It will be a 2-week-posting, meaning in just 2 weeks time, we're having an exam - (freaking) AGAIN.
Ortho's an interesting medical field. deals with 3 major components: skin, muscles and bones. I somehow can't wait to start anew. I hope I won't repeat the same mistakes again. I hope I will be strong enough, I have I have good enough determination to go through with all this. I know by entering medical field, its gonna be a hard, long learning process that will go on FOREVER, non-stop (this is kinda like in the fine print in medical school admission XD). I used to think that my learning process would stop at school, matrix and college. and working is the finish line (always dreamed of having lots of money, buying things and relaxing or doing whatever i want) but I was seriously wrong, thats just a kid's fantasy land. this is the real world, of course its tough! so yeah, I'm hoping that I would have enough strength to be in this field.

oh, btw, the only things that can distract me from my traumatised self are hot vampires from The Vampires Diaries (<3 Stefan!). anyone who knows me well, know that I have a thing for vampires hehe. I'm glad people can produce such a nice tv series, though it has high school theme and the kinda cliche-ish story of romance between vampires and mortal, its SO much better than that over-rated Twilight film. I'm SO happy to see fangs in action, unlike the glittery skin and vegan vampires whose highlight of their life was playing softball in Twilight (boo!).

*melts*

btw, gtg to bed now, I'll fangirl about The Vampire Diaries later X3

nighty night~!

eve of exam day

yup, tomorrow's THE doomday. its time for our end of Paediatrics posting EXAM!! Like I've said so many times (SO cliche-ish!) time flies SOOO freaking fast. It feels just like yesterday I was done with my ObGyn exam and starting on the new posting - Paediatrics. Days and nights in the Paediatrics posting (hospital visits, lectures, seminars, tutorials, clinics), kinda felt like I just floated in and out through them. Its not miniature medicine, its medicine, its everything under the sun, its really really tough. Though for what its worth, I'm gonna miss those little kiddies.

I wish my fellow Paeds friends all the best! hope we all pass in flying colors.


This is war! Get ready your shields, swords and bows! Tonight we dine in hell!! (ok, ignore me, going totally crazy)
If I don't make it............. I love you guys.... huhuhu

past, exam, future

when an exam comes, 2 things come to my mind (almost everytime)

1. the past
2. the future

1. the past
I'll have regrets. of how lazy I was (or am), of how little effort I've given, of things I should do/shouldn't do. I'll wish how great it was if I could turn back time and right my wrongs.

2. the future
I'll wish for the exam to pass quickly. I'll think about things to do after the exam is all done. I'll wish I'd do well and pass.

so yeah, I'll want to turn back time or speed up until after the exam. the past is for good memories, regrets and learning experiences. the future is for hopes, dreams & changes, and its really scary because you won't know what happens next. but the present is the scariest part, because you'll feel every pain you're going through, every cut and blow. time and space continuum is really a sick stuff.

OH MY ZEBRA!!!

Just wanna SHOW OFF my new desktop look~ love black and white, LOVE zebra print~! (no zebra fur, please!)
I really love the bold print, despite being only black and white, it couldn't be more beautiful! its a combination between minimalistic and being over the top. I specially love the zebra wallpaper, the zebra's eye is crazy beautiful!

Special thanks to:
Windowblinds theme: Animal instinct by Maxhim
Persona: Zebra Stripes by SlickDesigns
MSN skin: a photo downloaded from google image
CursorFX: Sketch (unknown creator)
Objectdock: Gloss textured: Zebra
Objectdock icons: ecqlipse 2 black icons

Sundai mornin'

Well, turned out I didn't wake up for the jog (sorry Mel for ditching ya! ^^;)
and I'm so rusty, physically and mentally.

me: a rusty tinman

haha! just now, Amy and I went to play badminton at Setapok badminton court. I wanted to do some sports since its been a while that I exercise (the only exercises I'm getting these days are walking to the hospital and climbing up the stairs). so yeah, I asked Amy to play badminton with me.

It rained sooo hard this evening. I actually just wanted to play badminton in college, out in the open, but because of the rain, we had to go to the badminton court. So, we played for an hour for a $10 and we bought a shuttlecock, the cheapest one there is there! ($3) and we laughed at ourselves for looking so amateur (like seriously, there were loads of athletic looking guy, with super big sports branded items (nike shoes, adidas t-shirts, etc etc) with super expensive branded rackets with rackets cover, while Amy and I were holding our old, worn (cheap?) shabby rackets (no fancy covers) and 1 cheap shuttlecocks, and my sport shoes weren't even sport shoes!)

anyway! when we started playing (amateurly, with sounds of expensive shoes squeaking around, and loud smashing of shuttlecocks between the seemingly athletic players) its really fun! I love the endorphins released during exercise (specially when you're playing your favorite sport!) however I got breathless in 15 minutes (like seriously, the 70-ies old men on the court beside us looked like active robots that would never get tired!), proof of me having lack of exercise. we got 2 rests in between, and we persevered. yay us!

now that I've rested for a bit, I kinda feel like my muscles are aching. tomorrow morning I will definitely be like the rusty tinman, having not oiled my hinges since forever. and oh, I forgot to mention, we didnt do any warming up because we're just too excited to start playing badminton..haha!


oh and, also, amy, mel and I are planning to go jogging at dawn tomorrow. I really hope I can wake up on time XD

to the hospital: walk vs drive

pros and cons of walking to the hospital vs driving

on walking
pros:
1. its an exercise - keeps you fit and healthy physically and mentally
2. saves fuel
3. thus, reducing pollution

cons:
1. its kinda tiring
2. sweating like crazy arriving at the hospital
3. its really hot and tiring on hot days
4. you get rained on on rainy days (tho its cooling)
5. really needs a determination and strong will to go walking (laziness) even though you know of all the health benefits
6. cant really use heels, even the low ones


on driving
pros:
1. you get there fast
2. air-cond, roof on your head -> protection from heat and rain
3. you look more stylish (lol, kidding!)

cons:
1. uses fuel
2. pollution and global warming!
3. traffic jams!!!!
3. DAMN hard to find a parking at the hospital
4. makes you lazy, reduces stamina

so yeah, I really wanna start walking to the hospital, and like I've said, its really gonna take determination to choose walking over the luxury of a car. How I wish there's a cycling lane between the hospital and our college!!

In the head of the underdog

"As she walks to face the real world, she swallows her misery and puts on her game face. And with a faux confident smile and strong strides, she tries to hold herself together but deep inside, she's crumbling like a cookie..."

Additional notes :

1. I'm sorry but I don't intend to make anyone else feel this sick feeling, I know very well that negative feelings/aura can be pretty infectious.
2. I have the rights and reasons to feel down, depressed and to doubt myself. I am not super woman.
3. This is purely a way to pour out all of my negative feelings. Just let me lick my wounds for a moment before I can pick myself up again.
4. And this is one example of the deadly effect from the disastrous combination of PMS and exam stress.

poor kid poor parents

it was our clinic afternoon. we were quite having fun, playing with the kids all laughing and smiling. then came in that baby boy. He looked small for his age, even non-medical personnel can tell he's thinner than normal infants. His mother brought him, a very thin woman, age at most, my age (I think, because she's wearing a shabby old-looking National Service t-shirt). He was wrapped in an old, soiled, worn towel. The mother told Dr. Andy that he had been vomiting everytime he feeds, and today he had diarrhea. Its kinda obvious we were quite surprised to watch how negligent a mother can be, like the child has not been fed, because all the milk intake was vomited out! and for a week! thats like dog weeks for a baby! and upon examination, the baby was quite dehydrated, with no tears upon crying and dry oral mucosa despite good skin turgor. and the poor baby's clothes were stained with his stool and urine.

Then, Dr. Andy told the mother and father (came in later) that the child had to be admitted for IV fluid infusion. Being ignorant on how severe their baby's condition was, the parents seemed reluctant to admit the child, mainly the dad being so stubborn, making lots of excuses like he has no time coz he's got work, its far, the grandfather wont let it etc etc, it took quite some time to persuade them to finally admit the child to the ward.

Apparently, this family came from a lower socioeconomic status. Its sad that such condition still exist in Malaysia. Family who is poor, with loads of children, leading to more negligence, and parents with no education, who dont really know/care about their children's education, leading to school drop outs, leading to no job/low salary jobs. Those people need to know that to break the poverty vicious cycle, they need to get proper education! Education does not only bring money, which is really important nowadays as the standard of living grows higher and higher (seriously, money makes the world go round), people with education is usually respected and put on a higher social class.

Oh gosh, what am I preaching here?! I guess I'm just hoping that those people can wake up and face reality, because I really can't imagine living in such difficult environment, where you actually have the choice to change your life in the first place. Life is all about making smart choices, baby~

and ME! please choose to study. study like there's no freaking tomorrow! medicine is your passion, its science about human being, its understanding the human body, its the study of the awesomeness of our body, the disease and changing the course of evil nature by treating them. science, that I love so much. come on, me! please study! like FREAKING NOW, please!!! *crazy!*

going to the battle

well, thanks to the realistic and superb CG of epic battle scenes in LOTR, it has really made me feel like I was in there. it made me kinda wonder,

like, how does it feel to prepare and go for a battle? for a war?

Do you feel scared?
Do you feel empty, rid of all emotions and ready?
Are you ready to accept that death is an option?
Are you ready to sacrifice yourself to protect your land or people?
Are you ready to swing your blade or shoot your arrow to those orcs and evil people?
Can you defeat your enemy?
Can you be defeated?
How long can you last before someone strikes at you?
How does it feel to die in honour?
Will we win?
Will we lose?

Its kinda scary isnt it? (Well, for me, anyways) The feeling of going to the battle, to your death. Though if you're pretty invincible like Aragorn or Legolas, will you feel really confident? and like to face and fight the really disgusting and scary looking Orcs or Uruk-hai or trolls who like, kill then eat you? I'd like to be the wizard though, if I was Gandalf, I'd definitely use lots of magic to defeat the enemies.

Anyways, yeah, enough being in the fantasy world! I wouldn't want to feel those fears. We should appreciate our freedom and independence more.

awesomeness of THE one ring

hi! just wanna update that I've gotten better from my illness. just some minimal abdominal pain, no more fever, vomiting and such. I've also regained my appetite back, thus gaining back my energy which is really great because being dehydrated and feverish really weakened me. health is something we can never take for granted!

anyways, I've also have just finished watching the greatest trilogy ever made, the movies that wrote the definition of "epic" in the dictionary~ Lord of the Rings!! Gosh, I love LOTR so much, I've seen it countless times, and I still gasp at the surprises and saddened at the death of Boromir and Haldir and other people. The trilogy is just too amazing. Its perfect, from the sound to the graphic to the characters(from the awesome beauty of the Elves, to the disgusting ugly you-can-smell-the-stink-through-your-screen orcs), all made to perfection. love the architectural of the elven dwellings, I might want to corporate the designs into my future home. heck, I want the Ring to be my wedding ring XD
*sigh* I really just love LOTR, no one shouldn't miss watching this in their lives.

my dearest Legolas~ I love his archery skills and I just love the way he is always clean and glowy even in the middle of the epic battle *sigh*

Incapacitated

Got sick again! its been a long time since I've been this sick. It feels really terrible. I was totally incapacitated. My senses, my movement, my thoughts, all feel like I was in a slow motion. Making me feel lazy to move or do anything. I havent eaten anything because I feel all nauseous looking at food. Have been drinking water and isotonic drink to replace all the fluid.

Last night was the worst night ever, I could not sleep at all. Now I feel kinda better and hope I will get better SOON!

Aidilfitri memento

Hi there, we're still in the month of Syawal. So, Selamat Hari Raya to all muslims. its the day to celebrate our success after fasting, and also to ask for forgiveness from each other.

Forgiveness, when you mean it, when you regret the wrongs that you have done and when you want to reconcile with someone, you ask for forgiveness. its easy to say something thats meaningless, and when you really mean it, you'll feel the happiness the moment the other someone accepted your apologies. its quite a touching moment.

My raya celebration was really blissful. I've celebrated it with my parents and beloved family which I'm usually far from. Sure, our family is not perfect, and we have crises, but my love to my family is endless, especially to my parents who have made PRICELESS sacrifices for all of us. its really sad that some children have selfishly taken their parents for granted. its unbearable. I like to see things from different perspectives, like, from the victim, from the culprit, from the police etc etc, but I couldnt seem to understand the point of view from children who couldnt appreciate their parents, good parents who love and care, who are the very essence of their existence and who have supported their life. but human in general are weak, some children fell into peer pressure and all, thus forgetting all there is about family and life value. all they think about is themselves. they never learn to put themselves in their parents' situations, they just wanna have fun, they dont care if they're hurting other people. selfishness, irresponsibility and narrow-minded, a mixture of a stupid and weak mind. and a stupid person will never say they're stupid, thus bringing awareness to them is a tough work. all we can do is give them advice, hope they can understand and realize and pray for them to change.

and religion, why is religion important? because it sets rules for human ever so weak morals. I'm not saying atheists are immoral people. but I believe religions are like the core and mould in forming an individual. the rules are made for good reasons, they're always to bring benefits to the religious worshiper, and to prevent bad things from happening. different religion has different rules, but all in all, the rules are made for that same reason of protecting humankind. believing in god brings peace and confidence to any religion worshipers. we pray because we're thankful that we're alive, we pray because we're grateful of everything good we have in life, we pray for strength to go on hardship, we pray for forgiveness of what we did wrong and regret, we pray for a better future for ourselves and people we love, we pray for good things to happen and bad things to not happen in the future that we cant control. we pray for a lot of things from our Creator. we are insignificant beings in this whole universe. thats why we have to search and find the meaning of our existence.

anyways, in this Raya spirit, I'm still having a little bit of homesickness. I miss my family and my house so much! I'll never stop loving my parents and I will do my very best to make them happy. I appreciate what they have done to me since I was in my mother's womb, I cant think of anything that is even close to repaying all their sacrifices for me and family and I thank god for giving me the awareness and guidance. I love you mom & dad! you're THE best of THE best!

also, in this beautiful month, I really want to start to change to be a better person and a better Muslimah, yeah I've broken some rules and all, I'm not a good Muslimah at all. so from now on, I'm trying to improve myself little by little. so, I hope I can improve and be better in everything there is in life.

Can you resist The Resistance?

Just finished listening to this album. Its quite good for me, not extraordinarily great like the previous Blackholes and Revelation and Absolution.

all in all, I love Matthew Bellany's vocals, the main signature of Muse. their music is awesome and different like always. and their lyrics, well, they're weird and unique like the usual Muse stuff, in a good way of course. they're mostly singing about morales in scientific metaphors with playful tones. and somehow, quite a lot of the songs in this album are about an evil lover? as in Undisclosed Desires, I Belong To You, MK Ultra, and some of the Exogenesis: Symphony.

there are 3 parts of musical like songs, Exogenesis: Symphony. those 3 parts consisted of a cool fusion of classical orchestra, rock and electronica genres. singing about one theory of creation? where we are? when we are? just the most asked and unanswered questions of all time. they also sang about exogenesis or panspermia, hypothesizing that all living creatures in the universe originated from the same source. for more information, read The Deception Point from Dan Brown XD. I'll love anything related to astronomy :P

Resistance is cool! the first opening felt like you're floating in the middle of the space, then comes the piano, which is so cool~ I think its my most fave song in this album!

United States of Eurasia has some middle-eastern music? felt kinda like in Aladdin or Prince of Persia or something. Its really cool ^^

however, I found MK Ultra, Unnatural Selection and Uprising quite boring. Like I have to force myself to listen to them to the finish and they didn't make me wonder whats next in the songs and of course, it didn't make me want more of the songs, thus, me ended up forcing myself to listen to them.

or perhaps, they're just not the song to listen after a day of classes XD
so, all in all, I'll give it a 4/5 stars. Maybe if I could listen to them more and understand all the lyrics, they'll all be funner? XD

Just a-whatever-review from me :P

a new change

sempena Raya la konon~

my old blog theme is just way too boring!!! It was in a dire need of change, like seriously? thats from a freaking year ago!!

So, welcome to the new change~~
I love my new blog theme. Kinda hard to tweak all the widgets and all, and some annoying changes that I couldn't change, which I decided to get use to and stuff (it hides my navigation bar and I dunno how to change the html codes - it went haywire when I tried deleting something :P).

Anyway, 5 more days to go for Raya celebration. Thus, most of us have this heavy lazy aura around us. I really am in the mood of a holiday!! Though, I didn't do much preparations this year, its been a busy, busy year. Really can't wait to get home to celebrate it with my beloved family. Though, seriously, I'm gonna miss Ramadhan, its really a month like no other. Hope I can meet it again next year and I'll do better then.

Moreh, Ramadhan and the "feel"

wow, its been 19 days we're in the fasting month~! time really flies, ne?

tonight is our turn to prepare for Moreh. 1st of all, what is Moreh?
Moreh is a term used for "eating together after solat tarawih". I think the term originates from West Malaysia as I've never used that term before. anyways, yeah, Moreh is one of the experience in the fasting month, which has the "feel" of being in the fasting month.

So, we cooked
a) Mashed potatoes
b) French fries (yeah, I know, too many potatoes XD)
c) last but not least, Sushi by yours truly, moi~ XD

it was quite a hit, if I must say, so yeah, so proud and happy seeing people eat what you've made. its priceless XD. though I wish we could just take some pics of our hard work! we've been too busy that we forgot to capture the precious moment!

and speaking of Ramadhan, there are some things that make it really feel like Ramadhan. so, my other experiences that is specific to giving the "feel" to Ramadhan are:

1. sahur: waking up early in the morning before dawn to eat. kinda like the preparation for the fast during the day. I'm not a morning person, let alone waking up before dawn! so its kinda hard for me to get up for sahur. its been difficult but I kinda toughen myself just to have the "feel" of Ramadhan. (actually, only drinking some water is enough for me XD)

2. break of fast aka sungkey: eating at dusk, after the whole day of fasting. one of the merriest time of the day. yup, kinda like, celebrating our effort in fasting. victory!! XD

3. ramadhan bazaar: an area filled with stalls selling food and drink. it has almost everything! XD walking around a bazaar, with an empty stomach and food all around you.. its like the most tempting moment of the day, and this could lead to over spending of food XD

4. tarawih & witir: the prayers performed specially for Ramadhan month. to pray for forgiveness and to be thankful for everything. filled with lotsa fadhilat, even busy people make time for these prayers.

5. tadarus al-quran: the reading of the Muslim's holy book, the Quran. usually people would want to finish reading the Quran in this month. its good to reflect its meaning and learn from it.

6. moreh: like I said, eating after the prayers. it increases the bond between other people. people eat and strengthen the bond of silaturrahim.

7. documentary about Islam: like Jejak Rasul and Syahadah. mostly airing about the history of Islam, the historical places, about other Muslims in other countries and all that. a good way to increase knowledge about Islam.

8. cooking programs: 2 significant programs a) cooking for break of fast, b) cooking for Raya (Eid) preparation!! somehow those just leave you with the "feel" of Ramadhan XD

9. baking!: oh, I love this the most! its for Raya, where we serve cookies, cakes or anything for the guests. I really love baking, though I don't think I would be able to do so because there's no time :(

10: Raya cards: SOOO nostalgic! really love sending those in my younger days XD. now, its all about e-cards and SMS, people just don't bother much about sending a proper card! :(

so yeah, thats all I can think about for now. Happy Ramadhan to all Muslims~

Live = eviL

it never fails to amuse me, people's ignorance towards human nature. like, seriously, do you expect everyone to be all angelic, everything to be rainbows and butterflies?

people use people, its dog-eat-dog world out there! grow the freaking up!

again, I'm not rooting for evil, but please, acknowledge that in human there are good and evil, in Islam, its like, the akal and nafsu. in greek mythology, there are eros and thanatos, human drive towards live and death, respectively. and also, as in yin and yang. all evolving around good vs evil in this life.

so, why should we deny the existence of evil in everyone? so we can live blissfully ignorant? so evil things wont happen if we didnt think about them?

and why should we accept the existence of evil? so we can understand more about human nature, so we know what we're facing, so we know the cause/reason of its existence. so we can avoid the shock (like, omg!! I cant believe he actually used me to get something and when he's done he just threw me away?? omg!! *crushed!!*). thus, we can prepare ourselves. then perhaps, we would know how to face it, avoid it or solve it.

and personally, I think, having "evil" in us doesnt mean it makes us all murderer, traitor or whatever evil being there is. like love, the definition of evil is subjective. sometimes we need to be selfish to protect ourselves. sometimes we need to be stingy to protect ourselves. like, in the anime Fruits Basket, there is the story about the stupid humble traveller who gave his own body parts to be eaten by goblins just because he pitied the hungry goblins. we do not need to be this good/generous, right? too much or too little of something is always not good. almost in everything, moderation is the key.

all in all, its all about a harmonious balance between good and evil, akal and nafsu, eros and thanatos, yin and yang in an ideal life.

trip to home and back again

I seemed to have lost my interest in updating my blog. Probably because after the exam, I kinda like, "let it all down". I have rested, slept like a log, and wasted my time online and watching drama or movies. it was all stress-free~

and last weekend, I went back home. overall it was fun, though I couldn't really be as free as when I am here, because at home, I still have to do chores, unlike here where I can procrastinate all I want :P. Also, I've been busy with my 14-month-old niece, who can already walk, run and babble some words, she's getting smarter and even naughtier, its really hard to chase her around the house! like a quote inside my paediatric guide book, "You can learn many things from children - how much patience you have, for instance - Franklin P. Jones". Apparently, I dont have much of it, so its something that I'll have to learn more.

Also, yesterday was Malaysia's 52nd Independence Day aka Merdeka day, with the theme of 1 Malaysia this year. Merdeka is when Malaysia was freed from British invasion. Blood has been spilt, and a lot of effort and sacrifices were involved in the process. I don't think there's enough empathy which we can express that is equal to how difficult the whole Merdeka process really was. Without all the sacrifices and all, Malaysians wouldn't be able to experience such freedom as now. I'm not really good at history but I understand the basic of it XD.
Still, some stupid Malaysians decided to think that freedom in Merdeka is the same as freedom to waste themselves, to be free from all the moral restraints. Merdeka is celebrated by getting wasted with alcohol, drugs and social gathering of nothingness. I dunno, I just hate the youth today, the ones who cant think higher than the basic survival instincts of eating and mating, who followed every single thing the media redeemed as "cool" regardless of the consequences. well, I think everyone knows how this species is.

So, when my 16-year-old sister decided to go out to celebrate Merdeka with a couple of good-for-nothing watsisface and watserface, god, I was pissed off. I was worried till I couldnt sleep. i felt like a protective mother. gave her some talk after she came back, hope she'll change for the better.

why do I hate those idiots so much? its because:
a. they don't have the will to learn, they are too content with what they have, they have no self-motivation to improve themselves (this is where "stay the same" song doesn't work)

b. they are too weak to peer pressure and a slave to the so-called coolness (their definition of cool = hate school, study as little as possible, laugh at people who do nice things or study and call them "geek", destroy your body as much as possible - smoke! drink! drugs! sex!, be stupid, look stupid, feel stupid, eat stupid) kawan mkn taik ko pun mkn taik juak!

c. they follow everything they watch on TV (content same as point above)

there is a thin line between being adventurous and being stupid,
also a thin line between having fun and being stupid.

parents don't let their kids out late at night to prevent from bad things happening to them (self-destruction, rape, fights, murder, etc), not because they are narrow minded or they dont want the kids to have fun or "mengongkong", like we've heard a lot from the stupid people's excuses. even though our parents are from different generation, the human nature hasn't really changed much, only even worse now. parents have been teenagers before, they understand. been there done that!

and I'm not advocating to make TV our enemy, or dont ever watch TV! its just that we have to have some sort of a filter, to sieve through, learn to avoid the bad influence and follow the good ones. just like fashion, what may look good on other people doesnt mean it would look good on you. so, think wisely!

and have the freaking courage to say NO to those pesky peer pressure thingy. i know its hard for most teenagers, thats why i said courage is needed.

or perhaps, stupid people exist to complete the hierarchy of the ecosystem. if there are no losers, there wont be any winners?

anyways, nice guys always finish last. thats kinda like the rule of the world.

another long post from me. I just cant stop myself from talking about those people. Anyways, those are just my honest point of view. I hope I didnt get stupid being caught up in my own thoughts and eliminating other possibilities. If I was wrong, enlighten me.

Together we decrease the incidence of stupidity!!!!

ObGyn exam tomorrow!!

first, thank God, my flight ticket thingy has settled, so I'll be going home next week~ yay!

Before that, EXAM! from Monday till Thursday! Its been quite a while since we had clinical exams, now I can freshly recall the fear it created when we first experienced those exams in our 3rd year.

So, am I ready? am I scared?
I'm terrified! reading is not a problem, remembering the facts and all is. with panic, sometimes my mind goes blank, thus creating a positive feedback of more fear. Thanks to my family's and my friend's words of support, they unfortunately only help a bit XD, coz in the midst of exam panic, little could be done to calm me down. the panic seems to crush my ever-so-little confidence to begin with. but yeah, I'm still thankful for all the support.

So, I hope my friends and I will do well, in this exam as well as becoming a really safe doctor in the future! good luck everyone!

stupid airlines service!

Booking a flight ticket seems to be a freaking pain in the ass!!!
Like, seriously? it dared tempt me in this high pressure situation??! >.<

welcoming ramadhan!! (you dont have to read the long rant XD)

Hai! Ramadhan is here, tomorrow, we're gonna start fasting! yay~

(hopes everything is said correctly XD)

anyway, suddenly just now, I kinda have a homesick episode. Reaaaally miss my family. Its been a while that I've spent a long time with my family. Its always a 1-2 week break (only a year or 2 ago that I had a long end-of-year-holiday) for the past 4 years of college, and the same goes to my school days (though the holidays here were less frequent however longer than my college days).

being away from my family, there are loads of pros and cons. the cons, its always hard, i'm kinda the mummy's girl so I get homesick quite a lot of times, most of the time I have to really struggle to adapt to the environments and all. the pros, mostly bittersweet, learning about new things in the cruel world out there, standing on your own two feet, being under harsh situations without much help from others (is thankful for some supportive friends). they have made me who I am right now, I think.

perhaps, in my future life, I wont want to send my kids to boarding schools. I realized that I've spent too little time with my family, maybe this will stay the same in the future. I dont really like this actually, despite all the benefits it gave me for all this while.

ANYWAYS! the fasting month! it makes me to recall the first time when we moved and settled in Mukah. it was just a small village back then, in 1996, if I'm not mistaken, I was just 10 years old? i kinda love the peacefulness that the village has, no traffic jams, the air is clean, even the now-polluted beach water was clean back then.

what I REALLY hate about that village is the people's mentality. especially the old ladies who were like the self-proclaimed leaders of the village, controlling everything. they're just a bunch of hypocrites, with badmouthing people as hobbies. so, in my young age, I was taught that honor is everything, even when you have to pretend to be nice, humble and friendly to others. If you dont smile to people, you're a bad person, if you compliment your hard work, you're showing off, you know, negative stuff like that. how narrow-minded they were! i also hate their not so funny jokes, mostly about degrading some people. what i couldnt forget till now is when they badmouthed my family really bad just because i wasnt "friendly" (like, as if i was gonna smile at everyone who's walking pass me :P). gosh, how stupid was that? like, a fight against a 10-year-old?so, at the young age, I learned hatred, wrath and vengeance.

oops, sorry, isnt supposed to say all bad things in the fasting month. its just that it brings back memories to me, because at the fasting month when i was a kid, we always went to the surau with my family to perform tarawih, and in the surau, there were those old ladies, and i was taught to pretend to be all smiley and nice to every-freaking-one, basically just doing what they want me to behave, which i really hate to do, thus, even until now, i dread the moment when i have to go to that surau. *what a traumatic childhood XD*

anyways, now that I'm all grown up, like hell am I gonna care about what they think of me. its all their fault for giving me such bad early impressions :P i think they still remain the same though, those old ladies, though some of them has had stroke and has been inactive, despite the developing town. perhaps, their reign of terror is over :P.

so yeah, how nostalgic that feels~ sorry for the soooo long of a post, cant help myself from ranting, revealing those old ugly skeletons i've kept in my closet. exam stress could be the trigger too XD

anyways, finally, HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIMS~~!! hope we have a blessed Ramadhan this year~ <3

where is my fantasy land?

Reality is SOOO harsh, sometimes I feel like I can't take it! how nice if I could just cast away my responsibilities and run far, far away and be FREE!!

If only life is THAT easy!!!!

current mood: melancholy, stressed, hopeless

Graduation ~congrats!~

this weekend has been the graduation event for my sis, and my seniors~ a HUGE congratulations!! I'm SO proud of all of you! though, I've been so busy lately or maybe I was just being an airhead for forgetting such an important event, so I didnt attend the graduation ceremony of my seniors! soo SORRY about that! I wish I could be with my sister at her graduation day too!!

wish I could give them this kinda cake~ cool, ne??

Maou

I just finished watching this drama (despite the guilt that I should've studied more..huhu)

Synopsis from DramaWiki - Maou

This drama is a remake of the popular suspense drama The Devil that was aired in Korea last year. Ohno Satoshi will be playing the role of a two-faced lawyer, one of which is a kind hearted soul and the other who is plotting revenge, using his brilliant mind, on the person who killed his relative. On the other hand, Ikuta Toma will play the double lead role of the man, who has become a detective due to his dark past, who is pursuing the mysterious series of murders and fighting against the devil (maou).

hum... overall, the story's quite good, nice performance from Ohno Satoshi and Ikuta Toma~ the story's quite serious and some very tear-jerking. though I cant help but get annoyed with some things:

1. the detectives were getting help from a psychic girl who could see "afterimage" of objects - this i think is like an unnecessary addition. I dunno, its just me, i just dont like seeing something not scientific in investigations i guess.
2. when someone's being stabbed/shot/bleeding/dying, wont anyone has the reflex to try as hard as they can to save that someone?? its just not this drama, most drama is like that, like when they see someone being stabbed/shot/bleeding/dying, they just scream or cry beside those wounded people. like, even if i dunno "ABC", i'd just call ambulance or help or something. and people dont just die immediately from a stab wound at the stomach from a 2x5 cm pocketknife.
3. when someone got mad and they started screaming to get their point across -really annoying-

sorry to the drama fans that im being such a spoilsport XD. but seriously, i cant help but to roll my eyes in those annoying scenes.

this drama mostly ventured into the dark side of human. its true that in every human there is a bit of evil, and its kinda like the job of the devil to make human go to the path of darkness. and its also about the balance of defending justice and revenge.

since kakkoi, evil, smart guy is so irresistable to me, I really love Naruse Ryou/Manaka Tomoo here, love the ending, I think it put a nice closure to this character. besides! I really love their hairstyle, no one can do the Japanese guy hairdo other than Japanese guys! and I really love the well-groomed metrosexual look of Naruse-san~ <3

ah, anyways, yeah, overall, i'd give this drama 7/10!

my c00kery

bored, stress, cheap, leading to one of my biggest guilty pressure : FOOD!
made those last few days~ hai dozo~

1. onigiri~~
its my first time making it, I made some from some leftover rice. the onigiri that i made were quite small, and its really hard because the rice kept on "cracking". though, they tasted kinda nice plus its very economical! ^.^v


2. instant mac n cheese with scrambled egg
minus milk n butter that are usually added in the instant macncheese (so, less guilt XD) n minus oil from the scrambled egg (thanks to Mel's very effective non-stick pan!


and thats all for now~ jaa~

the precioussssss ~shiawase, ne~

Yatta! it finally rained~! it started raining yesterday night~ ah~ its like the best feeling EVER!!!!
I even recorded the pre-storm breeze and all. like, seriously!! this is like the biggest happiness i've ever experienced! the first rain is precioussss! SO SO PRECIOUSSSSS, my love~! XD

here is some video of the windy night, my feeling at that time was undescribable!! *this video was taken from our balcony XD*


and then, the rain came. i was delirious with pure bliss. i took a pic of the first rain, the droplets being caught by the flash is just SO beautiful!

today, its still a bit hazy, seems like the haze is too heavy to be washed away by an episode of rain. its gonna take a lot of rain to wash it all away. sometimes the "before rain smell" is taken over the haze smell. well, i'm not complaining though, the rain has been a really marvelous blessing. this morning, i even woke up with a comforter on me! its been a reaaaaally long time that i ever needed one! and the whole day has been so comfy. no more unmerciful glaring heat from the sun. I really love rain!!

only one con is that the night is so cold that the bed is so tempting! its totally not good for our study, especially when the exam is so near! ganbatte minna-san! X3

heat wave

Kuching has been so hazy recently. its been very VERY hot, with haze - meaning hazy vision and the smoke-y smell that i hate so much, *thanks to human and development, we've succeeded in disrupting the ecosystem*. and totally no rain. oh, how i miss rain!

in this hot weather, the pros:
- your laundry dries up fast
- no worries about flooding in our fac

cons
- its HOTyeah, its been really hot! i have to shower more frequently now and i have to change very often from the sweat, so my laundry pile is getting bigger and bigger! and i really hate it when i had to wake up in the middle of a sleep/nap because its too hot and i was sweating too much! its so uncomfortable! really want to have an air conditioner now!!! or a swimming pool or even a bath tub!!! >.<

aah~ the water looks so cool, ne~?? *jealous!!!!*

also, my collection of coats and jackets have been totally ignored. poor them, poor me, i cant show them off, as outerwear is one of my most favorite part of an outfit.

ALSO, i have quite a labile mood. its understandable, ne? like the heat is making me feel so uncomfortable and un-energized, thus making me more fragile. i really get irritated/pissed off/mad/distressed/sad/depressed pretty easily nowadays. i dont wanna frown so much! it'd cause premature wrinkles!

especially when someone said something really stupid beyond my understanding. grr... even thinking of how they think really irritates me! waaay underestimating me, waaaay overestimating them =.= anyways, gotta go back to study now, we're having an exam in 2 weeks. I really hope there will be some rain! amiin~

funny "hot weather" cartoon can be viewed at http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/h/hot_weather.asp

carnival, cake, costume and cute arashi XD

*sigh* i've been really lazy to update my blog. either I'm busy with something or I'm appreciating my free time so much that I couldn't spend some time with my blog. anyways, like usual, the summary of my week(s).

well, starting with 21st July~ (of course XD)
its my 23rd BIRTHDAY! yay~!! *also coincided with with the day a man first walked on the moon! isnt that SUPER cool!!* anyway, since it fell on Tuesday, and its been really hell of a busy week in the Maternity ward, we decided to celebrate my birthday this weekend.

==and the rest of the weekdays were pretty much the same, spent loads of time in the ward and had gotten bombarded by the "AK-47" specialist *got demotivated and oh-well-couldn't-care-less attitude for a while -hatred for O&G kinda deepened a bit too for a while-*==

then, weekend!! after IDA, the last class we got for the week, my shoulders kinda like slumped with the lifted pressure. finally got to feel free for a little while, gotta enjoy to the max while I could! the friday night, finished watching Arashi no Shukudai-kun, its a talk show that is hosted by a popular Japanese idol band, Arashi, and its really fun and funny! and they're really cute too! *special thanks to Mel, Aimi and Yula, the UNIMAS fanclub of Arashi for supplying me with Arashi stuff XD*
Saturday, went to Jom Heboh, kinda like a carnival where Malaysian artists came and entertain the crowds, and booths selling super cheap stuff (though some are not really that cheap), oh also there is a haunted house, which I stayed far away from XD. the journey there was kinda stressful, with traffic jams, and trouble finding a parking. I parked at the road side and we had to walk a pretty far distance. and when we arrived at the place, it was really crowded. there were smokes from food stalls and the place was filled with 90% of people with no fashion sense (which totally irritated my eyes). my friends bought some Ribena and Munchy's stuff. I didnt buy anything coz they didnt really appeal much to me. saw some TV artists performing/being taken pics with, and a band I didnt know performed. then, made our way through the sea of crowd back to my car. i dont really like crowded places, thus I made a vow not to go to another Jom Heboh ever.
Sunday, went shopping with my bffs, i wanted to buy some groceries and make ups. ended up buying a white dress too *sigh*. i also helped my friends buying stuff for my little costume party! we cooked spaghetti (thanks to chef Amy-sama XD), I made fruit salad, and we served other stuff like assorted chocs, Munchy's biscuits and some soda. oh, and my birthday cake is from Secret Recipe's, Chocolate Strawberry cake! おいしい~~~!!and then, there were loads and loads of photography session XD. cant upload the pics due to cosplayers discretion~ its SO much fun! actually to be honest, I was worried that it'd be too much of a nuisance to everyone, but I'm really touched by everyone's enthusiasts to dress up for my costume party. thanks everyone!

presents! poor little last-year-birthday-teddy looking from afar XD

oh, and got a cute little tote bag that I've been eye-ing for quite a while (thanks, minna-san! honto ni honto ni DAISUKI!!!! X3), a KNITTED teddy!! like its a first time that i've ever received a handmade knitted stuff, its such a good feeling!! like, a super huge appreciation to the knitting effort. no wonder guys love receiving knitted stuff XD. for this, I'll give 60% support for AiNo! (20 to Mel, and 20 to Yula XD) and special from Sarah, a tiara hair accessory~ pretty, ne~? oh last but not least, a tank top from Dilah, sorry I couldnt take the pic, I already put it in the washing machine at this time! XD

so, all in all, its been really fun! thanks everyone for coming to my party and making my dream of hosting a costume event a reality XD. thanks for everything~ suge kimochi~~!

maternity week and my "so-called" parfait

ah, sorry for neglecting you for so long, bloggie-chan! I've been yet again busy and lazy to update this blog. today's the first day that we "officially" start our rotation to the maternity ward, its really huge compared to the gynae ward. anyways, it all started from the ban that our faculty issued due to the preparation the hospital made to accommodate suspected cases of H1N1 infection from the World Rainforest Music Festival that was held here last week. because this even had invited loads of tourists, its really like the petri dish for H1N1 breeding XD. so, all the students were then banned to go to the WRMF, and also the hospital, to minimize the risk of infection. students who had bought the tickets (which cost $90!)had to sell them in lower price to other people who still wanted to go and risked their life for some music festival =.=

so yeah, today we began our maternity rotation, its gonna last for 2 weeks. so far so good, though we heard maternity 1 group has been scolded really hard by the specialist, Dr. Nicholas, it really makes me go "doki doki" everytime i hear the story, it really IS scary!

anyways, the water problem still persists, its really driving us CRAZY! I dont really know whats going on, but they said something about the pump thingy, and like, the college people are waiting for the asset people to allow some funds for the pump repair thingy? *sigh* its really terrible. i'm SO feeling that my rights as a student is breached or something, its unbelievable. no one should suffer the hardship of not having water supply. I'd like to have the peace of mind whenever I turn the tap and not worry if there's water for shower tomorrow morning before class.

とにかく!! going crazy should be avoided!! therefore, we need anti-stress~~ DESSERTS da yo~~
just cause they are the opposite of stressed, ne?

STRESSED=DESSERTS

I got this idea while watching Arashi no Shukudai-kun, where they featured guest stars and delicacies that sometimes makes you go, "omg, that looks so good *drools*" yup, the show has that effect XD. anyways, I created the Kiwi Parfait~

ingredients: Kiwi, Whipped cream (light, to alleviate guilt XD), Hershey's Chocolate Syrup & Cornflakes. hai, dozo~

おいしい~~

it somehow made my day better.
and to my groupmates: みな-さん, がんばる よ~!!

the element of life

Air, Aek, Water, Mizu, Eau, H2O

yes, water is the 2nd most vital element in life after oxygen. life has been hard lately, since there was some pump problem thingy happening in our college hostel. *sigh* the administration keeps on saying they're gonna get someone to fix it. i wonder who the someone is, if the job is really gonna be done, when it is gonna be really fixed?? its been the whole weekend without sufficient water supply! there was some emergency water stored but only for emergency purposes. and yesterday, we had to drive to Sebayor, the sister hostel of our college, just to have shower and all.

As our class is starting tomorrow, I'd really hope that the pump is fixed. So dont wanna get another problem added to my monday blues thingy.

I wish we had this:

pyrexic!

the thing i hate most about having a fever is the craziness of the failure of the body's temperature control.

so, you'll feel cold and hot almost at the same time. first, you'll feel SOOO hot! its so uncomfortable, so you go and try to cool down, like removing the blanket, or washing your face etc. then! you'll feel SOOOO cold that you're shivering! its so uncomfortable too! so, you'll have to go under the blanket or put on some extra clothes. then! you'll feel hot again! and the dreadful cycle goes round and round. you dont know how to make yourself comfortable. the temperature control has gone haywire and failed to adjust to the surrounding. the extremes of the temperature are experienced at the same time! soooo uncomfortable!!!

i wish i had a boyfriend who would put wet towel on my forehead, and change it time to time, and make some porridge and feed me! aaa~n XD *has been watching too much anime or jdrama XD*

hate is a strong word, but i really, really, really dont like you!

poor you, shouting around just to get noticed.

well, isnt it the purpose of communications, interactions? to get noticed, to get responses from other people?

people acknowledge others through their actions and speech, but as words can be played and actions can be faked, its quite hard to really read people. its not like I'm advocating anti-social activities. being noticed is good sometimes (at the right time, with the right situation and with the right people)

still though, shouting around, shouting around, shouting around just to get noticed... むかつく!!! だいきらい だ! (sorry, I only know hiragana)

something too much is just way too much! grow the freaking up!!

~is in irritable mode, sorry to unrelated people~

Poem of Powerlessness

"As the rain keeps falling,
the water keeps raising,
the current keeps flowing,
and you are drowning,
as I stood by your side,
I could only watch,
I was, I am POWERLESS!!"

Venus-chaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan!!! *sob sob*

yeah, its flooding again in our college. its been raining for less than half a day only, and its started flooding. we all went to rescue our cars, so we had them at a higher place than the parking lot, that is all that we could do and the water was still rising (im not so sure now) and the rain is still falling, but it has gotten slower now. huu~ I really hope that the water will go down, and I really hope that my Venus is safe!! getting the carpet cleaned and all is really troublesome, so i really dont wanna do it again! and i really hope the water wont reach the engine or I'll cry!!

If only I have powers like Magneto or Sylar, it'd be a piece of cake to move all the cars, ne? *sigh* if only >.< *sempat gk berangan XD*

The Magic of Transforming Mecha~

Yesterday night, my friends and I went to watch Transformers 2: Revenge of the Fallen.

In the movie section, I'm really very hard to please. I usually have high expectations of the movie and almost always they disappoint me. I love to feel the impact the movies give me, how they excite me, get my adrenaline pumping, give me goosebumps, amaze me, shock me, make me feel like I'm in the movies, and above all, I want to feel THE magic!

and I really felt the magic, I was I was totally smitten by this movie. It was totally amazing, the computer graphic animations of the transformations of the Transformers are sooo fluid-like, so real, SO awesome! and the explosions, the shooting and the fighting, TOTALLY blew my mind!

ah, the feeling~ could it be better than falling in love? XD


this is one of my most favorite new transformers:
its hot pink and I love it! *might wanna re-take my motorcycle license XD*