Thursday, October 29, 2009

to the hospital: walk vs drive

pros and cons of walking to the hospital vs driving

on walking
pros:
1. its an exercise - keeps you fit and healthy physically and mentally
2. saves fuel
3. thus, reducing pollution

cons:
1. its kinda tiring
2. sweating like crazy arriving at the hospital
3. its really hot and tiring on hot days
4. you get rained on on rainy days (tho its cooling)
5. really needs a determination and strong will to go walking (laziness) even though you know of all the health benefits
6. cant really use heels, even the low ones


on driving
pros:
1. you get there fast
2. air-cond, roof on your head -> protection from heat and rain
3. you look more stylish (lol, kidding!)

cons:
1. uses fuel
2. pollution and global warming!
3. traffic jams!!!!
3. DAMN hard to find a parking at the hospital
4. makes you lazy, reduces stamina

so yeah, I really wanna start walking to the hospital, and like I've said, its really gonna take determination to choose walking over the luxury of a car. How I wish there's a cycling lane between the hospital and our college!!

Sunday, October 25, 2009

In the head of the underdog


"As she walks to face the real world, she swallows her misery and puts on her game face. And with a faux confident smile and strong strides, she tries to hold herself together but deep inside, she's crumbling like a cookie..."


Additional notes :
1. I'm sorry but I don't intend to make anyone else feel this sick feeling, I know very well that negative feelings/aura can be pretty infectious.
2. I have the rights and reasons to feel down, depressed and to doubt myself. I am not super woman.
3. This is purely a way to pour out all of my negative feelings. Just let me lick my wounds for a moment before I can pick myself up again.
4. And this is one example of the deadly effect from the disastrous combination of PMS and exam stress.

Thursday, October 15, 2009

poor kid poor parents

it was our clinic afternoon. we were quite having fun, playing with the kids all laughing and smiling. then came in that baby boy. He looked small for his age, even non-medical personnel can tell he's thinner than normal infants. His mother brought him, a very thin woman, age at most, my age (I think, because she's wearing a shabby old-looking National Service t-shirt). He was wrapped in an old, soiled, worn towel. The mother told Dr. Andy that he had been vomiting everytime he feeds, and today he had diarrhea. Its kinda obvious we were quite surprised to watch how negligent a mother can be, like the child has not been fed, because all the milk intake was vomited out! and for a week! thats like dog weeks for a baby! and upon examination, the baby was quite dehydrated, with no tears upon crying and dry oral mucosa despite good skin turgor. and the poor baby's clothes were stained with his stool and urine.

Then, Dr. Andy told the mother and father (came in later) that the child had to be admitted for IV fluid infusion. Being ignorant on how severe their baby's condition was, the parents seemed reluctant to admit the child, mainly the dad being so stubborn, making lots of excuses like he has no time coz he's got work, its far, the grandfather wont let it etc etc, it took quite some time to persuade them to finally admit the child to the ward.

Apparently, this family came from a lower socioeconomic status. Its sad that such condition still exist in Malaysia. Family who is poor, with loads of children, leading to more negligence, and parents with no education, who dont really know/care about their children's education, leading to school drop outs, leading to no job/low salary jobs. Those people need to know that to break the poverty vicious cycle, they need to get proper education! Education does not only bring money, which is really important nowadays as the standard of living grows higher and higher (seriously, money makes the world go round), people with education is usually respected and put on a higher social class.

Oh gosh, what am I preaching here?! I guess I'm just hoping that those people can wake up and face reality, because I really can't imagine living in such difficult environment, where you actually have the choice to change your life in the first place. Life is all about making smart choices, baby~

and ME! please choose to study. study like there's no freaking tomorrow! medicine is your passion, its science about human being, its understanding the human body, its the study of the awesomeness of our body, the disease and changing the course of evil nature by treating them. science, that I love so much. come on, me! please study! like FREAKING NOW, please!!! *crazy!*

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

going to the battle

well, thanks to the realistic and superb CG of epic battle scenes in LOTR, it has really made me feel like I was in there. it made me kinda wonder,

like, how does it feel to prepare and go for a battle? for a war?

Do you feel scared?
Do you feel empty, rid of all emotions and ready?
Are you ready to accept that death is an option?
Are you ready to sacrifice yourself to protect your land or people?
Are you ready to swing your blade or shoot your arrow to those orcs and evil people?
Can you defeat your enemy?
Can you be defeated?
How long can you last before someone strikes at you?
How does it feel to die in honour?
Will we win?
Will we lose?

Its kinda scary isnt it? (Well, for me, anyways) The feeling of going to the battle, to your death. Though if you're pretty invincible like Aragorn or Legolas, will you feel really confident? and like to face and fight the really disgusting and scary looking Orcs or Uruk-hai or trolls who like, kill then eat you? I'd like to be the wizard though, if I was Gandalf, I'd definitely use lots of magic to defeat the enemies.

Anyways, yeah, enough being in the fantasy world! I wouldn't want to feel those fears. We should appreciate our freedom and independence more.

awesomeness of THE one ring

hi! just wanna update that I've gotten better from my illness. just some minimal abdominal pain, no more fever, vomiting and such. I've also regained my appetite back, thus gaining back my energy which is really great because being dehydrated and feverish really weakened me. health is something we can never take for granted!

anyways, I've also have just finished watching the greatest trilogy ever made, the movies that wrote the definition of "epic" in the dictionary~ Lord of the Rings!! Gosh, I love LOTR so much, I've seen it countless times, and I still gasp at the surprises and saddened at the death of Boromir and Haldir and other people. The trilogy is just too amazing. Its perfect, from the sound to the graphic to the characters(from the awesome beauty of the Elves, to the disgusting ugly you-can-smell-the-stink-through-your-screen orcs), all made to perfection. love the architectural of the elven dwellings, I might want to corporate the designs into my future home. heck, I want the Ring to be my wedding ring XD
*sigh* I really just love LOTR, no one shouldn't miss watching this in their lives.

my dearest Legolas~ I love his archery skills and I just love the way he is always clean and glowy even in the middle of the epic battle *sigh*

Friday, October 9, 2009

Incapacitated

Got sick again! its been a long time since I've been this sick. It feels really terrible. I was totally incapacitated. My senses, my movement, my thoughts, all feel like I was in a slow motion. Making me feel lazy to move or do anything. I havent eaten anything because I feel all nauseous looking at food. Have been drinking water and isotonic drink to replace all the fluid.

Last night was the worst night ever, I could not sleep at all. Now I feel kinda better and hope I will get better SOON!