omg, i was so stressed out today because i was gonna present with a strict prof. and guess what?? he postponed it to tomorrow!! and my heart just broke into 2 parts, 1 happy that i have more time to prepare, and the other's like,"wth?? im gonna think about it and suffer for another day??!! >.<"
and just now, i was like, all braved up, i was thinking that every mistakes that im gonna do, its a learning process. but now?? its just like when you have had all the strong defenses all around you and just a tiny crack would send the defenses tumbling down. urgh! i really hate it.
so yeah, i dunno, im really out of my mind here, getting scared of the worst case scenarios, and how i'd messed up. on another note, i'm like, heck, just do it! in other people's eyes, im just another student who's supposed to present a case to the entire class. its my turn, my responsibility, and if i messed up, they wont feel much about it, and they're probably gonna say, its okay, its just a learning experience.
and inside me, im gonna be like all butterflies-in-my-stomach, scared of the possibilities of messing up and getting embarrassed in front of the entire class. while other people just relax, and to them, im just another person doing her job.
so yeah, if i screwed up, im gonna be okay with that. i hope i wont be over-analyzing, just accept my mistakes and learn from them. i WILL be fine (chant 20x) XD
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