twilight and the flood

okay, so yesterday, me and my girl friends went to watch some movie. its twilight. as a fan of the vampire genre, i was kinda excited to watch it. but, to my dismay, its such a HUUUGE disappointment. basically, its about vampire x human love. i really hate the dialogues, they're just too monosyllabic and quite meaningless. and the plots, they dont synchronize with each other. its quite boring, dull, and confusing. and there were little or no blood at all, like hello! its a vampire story!! they didnt even show how really powerful and fearsome the vampires could be. basically, the highlight of vampire awesomeness (this is an overstatement) was when they're playing baseball in the middle of the storm. poor Muse, they had their song as a soundtrack for the scene.

oh, one time, the vampire was like, "do you wanna know how we really look like in sunlight??!!" *yelling frantically at the human girl* then, he pulled the girl and ran at high speed to the mountain top, *i was actually had my hopes a bit higher here, anticipating scary gory powerful monster would come out*. but no~! the vampire's skin just sparkled in the sunlight, and the girl said "its beautiful" and the vampire went aggressively (almost to tears, I suppose) "beautiful?? its the skin of a killer!!!" SUPER lame! >.< The only thing Edward's sexy stare can kill was my enthusiasm.

Also, I had to rescue my car from being drowned! You know about the water drainage problem we're having at our college! the water was at my calf-length at the deepest part. it was really crazy! thank God nothing happened to my lovely car! X3

oh oh, i really love Shinigami's Illustrated Picture Book! GOLDEN!! *and byakuya-sama joked about cutting his hair with senbonzakura *SUPER kyaaaaa!!!!* X3*

review on bleach epi 107

im so sleepy right now, so wont type much.
im just surprised that ishida didnt use rao-tan's reiatsu to fire an arrow to kariya. they could have defeated him. then again, of course, its ichigo who would get to beat the boss of the evil guys :P

i just came back from watching Twilight. im so tired and sleepy, so i'll write about it and the flood we had tomorrow. jaa ne!

A new insight on psych

Okay okay, lets let go of the fangirlish stuff and look into something more serious now. You just can't mix business into pleasure (but you can mix pleasure into business XD.

Aanyways! this week we've been to the Sentosa Hospital where they have people with psychiatric problems. on Monday, we've been just visiting the wards there, getting to know the people who work there and stuff. to be honest, i was quite apprehensive and nervous when entering the wards. one of the patients was yelling racist stuff, some were just talking to us, even though the things they talk were nonsense, some were just staring at us. i was HONESTLY a bit scared. probably because its a new environment to me and i have yet to learn to handle the patients.

and just now, in the afternoon, we had a demonstration session where we witnessed how our professor interviewed the patient. its not really like the usual history that we take from medical ward or anything. i think its kinda new and interesting to me. it took me to a completely different level of approach towards people and life.

it hit me, i was unconsciously being judgmental towards some people with psychiatric problems that i've met before. gosh, how shallow i was. how i let my emotional and my pride got over my rational thinking. im really thankful that i got to be in this psychiatric posting. it completely opened up how i think towards others.

what the case was about? its confidential~ *himitsu da yo~!*
(lol, i was just lazy to type actually XD)
but i really have to say, i really, really hate people who succumb to peer pressure resulting in them doing all the stupid stuff that would harm themselves in the end. whats so good about having fun without the picture of you standing strong and proud after defeating your enemies (okay, thats a bit of Bleach influence there XP). SO yeah, I really hate weak people that give in to inappropriate stuff just because others tell him to do so. You have to belief in yourself and do whats best for you yourself. be confident and say "NO". the guy who laughs last win, ne?

so yeah, all in all, psychiatry is an interesting subject. you assess people from the outer appearance into the deep dark secret they have in their minds. its not something that you learn only by reading (though you need a LOT of reading), its all about practice and experience. how to sharpen your communication skill so patient will pour those deep dark secret of theirs to you. build rapports and make them trust you. hum..omoshiroi!

Kyaa~! *bleach fangirl* X3

Hi hi~ I just finished watching Bleach epi 63. I'm loving it SO much!
*except the stereotype parts like
- people who's supposed to be weak gotten stronger than the opponent, and the opponent got surprised
- almost no one cant defeat the captains except Ichigo
- an almost defeated person would have something more powerful up their sleeves
- sometimes it took so long to explain things in battle like "*shocked face* masaka, this reiatsu is so powerful. his speed increased so suddenly i can't see him. and the attack is so powerful, it threw me away. i cant believe he would improve in such a short time. he is at the same level as a captain's. this guy, what the heck is he?!?" me: "just slash him already!! mo! >o<"*

yup, and i just recently love Byakuya-chan. he's so kakkoi~~ i've really gone, "kya~! byakuya-sama~~!!" X3
and the pretty-face, he's so funny! Abarai-kun mo~
*atashi no Gin mo*~


so yeah, even though i've read the manga and known all the story, watching the anime is still really exciting for me.
buut~ in this fangirlish delirium..its kinda hard for me to study!!

all aboard!

yup, this morning, we went on an open ship. its the navy stuff i guess. i did get a bit bitchy at first because we got lost a lot, my fuel was drying up, and i had to wait for some people to freaking eat while we were waiting in a freaking hot car (i couldnt turn on the air-con coz my fuel was really low =.=).

*crabby mode*

anyways, i eventually cooled down, so everything was fine :P.

the open ship thing, its pretty cool. its a huge warship with cool navigators and cool weapons. one of the leading ships with high-technology in Malaysia, or so they said. hehe

I don't really care much about war ships and weapons, though I do love weapons because they're one of the symbols of powers >:D. there were heavy machine guns, missile launcher, and a decoy launcher (the ammo kinda blooms a ship-like stuff, making enemies targeting on the decoy rather than the real ship).

anyways, i had fun getting pictures taken. we had tour all around the ship and we got a glance on how the navy people's life. their rooms are kinda small, with bunk beds, and really chisai no closet, with chisai no shower to toire. (lol, whats with the sudden nihon-go mix??) anyways, it made me feel kinda claustrophobic in the rooms, and the closet wouldnt even fit 1/10 of my clothes DX.

so yeah, basically we walked around the ships, got briefed on stuffs there, took loads of pics and had some drinks with the people.

then we went back and ate lunch together at Tun Jugah.

then went back home. watched bleach for a while, chatted with some people, took a nap, then watched some bleach again, downloaded some claymore & bleach wallpapers (i got really cool Gin's wallies X3) and not studying *guilt-laden! - NOT :P*

so yeah, here are some pics from the battle ship (gosh! i miss the game! and beating someone! *wink wink* *evil laugh*). there are too many pics, which i've uploaded on my facebook X3

i haz koold down

subarashi kimochi~!

heavy machine gun!

Cliffhangered - BAD!

Oh-Em-Gee!!!! Prison Break!! IS TO DIE FOR!

I watched the season 4 up till episode 11, and the ending has the WORST (or the BEST X3) cliffhanger EVER!

Most people would say, usually drama series has the first season thats SO great, but they go downhill further and further at the next and the next and the next season (like Grey's anatomy).

But Prison Break is a whole different story. it always has something different, something exciting in store for you. New suspense, new treachery, new tactics, new strategies. OMG, its just genius, a masterpiece. its the only drama that made me go *gasps!*, *screams!*, *cry!* and of course a bit of *lols* XD

I cant wait to see the next epi! Prison Break, I love you! je t'aime! aishiteru! wo ai ni! X3

psyched for psychiatry~!

This is the 2nd day of psych posting. I LOVE IT!

The prof is quite strict, and he loves asking questions all the time, so we have to be prepared ALL the time. But, i love it! its really challenging and interesting. its like poking into someone's mind.

the hard part is about anatomy and physiology of the neurons and neurotransmitter. neurology is one of my weakest subject because of some certain events that made me lost my interest in neurology when i was learning it in my 2nd year. however! i vowed to master this topic even if i'd lose an arm and a leg XP.

it is also tough that the diagnosis is mostly through observation of the patients and talking with the patients. and the symptoms sometimes overlap with each other. and its not really something that can be confirmed by listening with a stethoscope, or palpating a mass, or percussion of the chest or any imaging (unless the cause is organic). so, mainly, you'll have to be really observant, and you'll have to know how to talk to patient and make patient talk to you.

anyways, the interesting part, yeah, its true that everyone has some mental disorders in varying degrees. mental health really is important in our life, because it affects our entire being.

anyways, this week is all about lectures on introduction to psychiatric problems and such. next week we're gonna visit the mental hospital. heard from our seniors it would be interesting. can't wait to find out about it XD

Girl's night out with Zeal

Huh..internet was down for the last few days. So, I'm updating about what has happened on Sunday. Last Sunday, Zeal, Mel and I went out to the Spring. I wanted to go out with Zeal coz its the last day she'd be here, she has gone to KL for her graduation this week. So yeah, we went windows shopping and of course, like usual, ended up with real shopping. I bought an L shirt and a tank top with a really loooong ribbon behind it X3.

So yeah, we had LOADS of fun! I haven't been able to go for a REAL shopping or anything for the past 2 months or so. What do you expect? They don't really have shopping malls or any place interesting in Bintangor. So, I was really having fun, I was like a recovering alcoholic who has been offered drink and I had craving!

We had photoshoots while trying on some clothes. I love the black coat with the furry hoodie. I called it the rockstar coat because its black, it has a hoodie, it has fur, it has golden studs. I love it! I did consider buying it XD. Then we had ice-creams, then we went windows shopping some more, then we went home. Its been really fun! ^^

Sunday

hi hi. its Sunday. Maybe time for Monday Blues?

oh, i read a review on my horoscope, which was given to me by a friend. its about 90% accurate, except for the children loving part. i dont really get along well with most children. i sent my sis the link, but she said its not really accurate about her. anyways, here is my link:
http://www.astrologyquestions.com/zodiac/zodiac-cancer.html

Tomorrow's we're gonna start the psych posting. We're gonna meet crazy people! (i cant really say that as a medical student. making psych a stigma for crazy/madness is just wrong!)
lol yeah, thats to the extreme. i hope its gonna be interesting. than the community posting. no offense there, community posting is really important. its just the lifestyle/the schedule we were in last time, its just too free and easy.

pros and cons of community and psych posting

community posting
pros: the life was relaxing, nothing much to do, not much classes to attend,
cons: loads of reports to do, its just too relaxing, its kinda boring. exam shock coz we were too lazy while in the posting.

psych
pros: life could be exciting, its a new branch of medicine for me
cons: its gonna be a little hectic adjusting to the schedule after all the relaxing community posting period.

so yeah, im a little excited to see what psych has to offer. i hope its really interesting. i'd love a new change, something exciting, something that would challenge me, something that would make me tick :P

sorry to the community posting, its just an easy lifestyle. its like eating rice everyday, it gets boring after a while. everything is in the comfort zone, no spice, no excitement, no CHALLENGE.

its like wearing the same cloth everyday, its like an old couple that grow tired of each other, its like playing Diner Dash everyday. its easy and its predictable.

i hope this new posting would bring change and some spice to my life.

Post-exam

hi hi~ exam's over for the public health. my VIVA was pretty good, could be better though, i was stammering and all, and my lecturer even asked "what happened to the confident liyana? you look so nervous today!" so i said, "its my first time on VIVA", then he said, "well, get use to it, k" and me, "okay *smiles meekly*"
i was nervous coz i wasnt prepared enough. huu....but uh..i cant change what have happened, so yeah, im quite satisfied with it.

so yeah, after the exam, i've been quite busy searching for costumes for my cosplay. they can be really expensive! and i dont really wanna pay too much for the things that i dont usually wear and stuff. so im looking for costumes that are wearable for cosplay and also for daily wear. i wont mind spending on japanese clothings though, like kimono, yukata, shinigami costumes etc etc, coz i really love them! X3

o kane-sama, please rain on me! i need money to buy clothes or i'd die! XD

hum...for gothic lolita or something normal like that, i'd like to mix and match with my other clothings to create the dramatic or non-dramatic effects that i'd want. dramatic and still wearable. its kinda fun!

oh, and tonight, my friends and i went to watch Madagascar 2: escape to africa. OMG, that movie is just SOOO hilarious! i love it~! and we got to take pics in front of the posters and stuff. and i got to take a picture with the most crushable guy ever. i hope he doesnt read my blog! X3

and something funny and embarassing happened to one of my friends (i cant tell anyone!) but i'd just wanted a reminder of that event here. hehehehe~

1st day of public health exam

hey~
today we had -> MCQ, BAQ, MEQ and OSPE

overall, the exam was quite difficult. i could answer some of them, some of them i wasnt so sure about. so im really scared!

and tomorrow's VIVA!!! i hate it. tomorrow, we're gonna be bombarded with question by our lecturer for 30 minutes! its like an interview! aaaah!!

anyways, during OSPE, we had 10 questions, but we have 20 students, so we had 10 question tables, and 10 rest station! its like, answer, rest, answer, rest....

so, because there were so many rest stations, i drew something on my fingers, waved at everyone else who was in rest station at that time XD (the lecturers were all gone at that moment! just some office people watching over us XD). and i went home and i scanned my hand~

kawaii, ne? X3

Panique!

i really hate waking up in the morning....especially
1. the day before an exam
2. an exam day
3. the day when the results come out.

it would feel like i've never slept at all the night before. i'd keep on having nightmares of the exam and all the facts would haunt me, keeping me at a constant panic/nervous state, which results in difficulty to stay under the subconscious level. i really hate that!

huu...only 3 days to go! ganbatte!!

Panic! at the last minute

urgh! exam is on wednesday!! hello!! wake-up call!

thankfully we've passed up all our reports by today, coz we've been doing the reports this weekend that we didnt have much time to study. and uh...we should have done the reports weeks ago, but yeah... I AM the Queen of Procrastination, Procrastination Angel, Procrastinationist... hum..that has a nice ring to it.. procrastitionist XD

anyways, yeah, I could have finished all the reports in just about 3 days, but i chose to do it at the very last minute. its just who i am..the ugly part of me. i kept on putting boring, full-of-responsibility things off, and i chose to play first.oh yeah, today, i just have the urge to own a katana (the samurai sword). I really want it and i want to learn to use it too! >:D
I love O Ren Ishii from Kill Bill. Her katana is so lovely eventhough she died. She was a cool villain! I so wanna cosplay as her! X3
(edit:oops correction~ O Ren used Shirasaya, a very elegant type of Japanese sword. I love it! ^^)


so yeah, off with the day-dreaming!!
now i'd better go back and study.
huhuhuhuhhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhuhu

I WAS bored :P

yup, i was sooooo stressed out coz of the coming exam and our reports deadline. and the virus infection. and my allergy. they're just driving me crazy. lets not forget some people who have succeeded in annoying me. i dont usually care about other people that much, but these oogerboogers is just driving me nuts. i dont even know if im the target or the collateral damage. they just know how to make me tick!. omg, someone knows my weaknesses!*gasp*

well, its really nothing..its just annoying, like an addictive parasite. you hate them but they interest you. maybe thats just coz i dont have anything much yet, for distraction. urgh, i need to get that over with. lets torture some other people. XD

kk, all those whatever-thingy aside, one of my blog's fans! told me that i've gone on a "MASSIVE BLOGGING". well, i AM back, so, heck yeah I'm gonna go crazy and massive blog! XD

oh oh, and last night, i was so bored, i put on some make up and dressed up as the girly L. it'd be interesting, wouldnt it? well, anything boys can do, girls can do better right? X3

but the pics are not available~ but i'd tell you, i kinda did a good job! but they're just for my darkly-made-up eyes only~~ and my sister's and my besties' and my goodies' (i cant help but to show off X3)

*trying so hard not to think of my unpreparedness to go to the exam battle on wednesday. aaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!!*

quizzes

i was bored and i took some quizzes. some hit the bull's eye, but some are just amusing. anyways, yeah, here are some of my results.

Your result for Howard Gardner's Eight Types of Intelligence Test...

Intrapersonal

31% Logical, 18% Spatial, 12% Linguistic, 59% Intrapersonal, 24% Interpersonal, 24% Musical, 20% Bodily-Kinesthetic and 33% Naturalistic!

"This area has to do with introspective and self-reflective capacities. Those who are strongest in this intelligence are typically introverts and prefer to work alone. They are usually highly self-aware and capable of understanding their own emotions, goals and motivations. They often have an affinity for thought-based pursuits such as philosophy. They learn best when allowed to concentrate on the subject by themselves. There is often a high level of perfectionism associated with this intelligence.

Careers which suit those with this intelligence include philosophers, psychologists, theologians, writers and scientists." (Wikipedia)

Take Howard Gardner's Eight Types of Intelligence Test at HelloQuizzy

Your result for "The Real You" Test...

Genuine Realist

Everyone has their quirks and flaws, but you're pretty well balanced for the most part. You're honest when it counts ... You care about yourself, but that doesn't stop you from caring about others, too ... and you know how to have fun without going overboard.

Take "The Real You" Test at HelloQuizzy

Your result for The Mental Illness Quiz...

Diagnosis: Multiple Personality Disorder

42% Depressed, 42% Obsessive, 49% Delusional and 61% Anxious!

Now known as Dissociative Identity Disorder. Dissociative identity disorder is characterized by the presence of split identities or personality states that continually have power over your behavior. With dissociative identity disorder, there's also an inability for you to recall key personal information that is too far-reaching to be explained as mere forgetfulness. With dissociative identity disorder, you have highly distinct memory variations, which fluctuate with your split personality.

“My significant other right now is myself, which is what happens when you suffer from multiple personality disorder and self-obsession.” - Joaquin Phoenix

Its important to know that you are not alone! Help is just around the corner. Make an appointment with your doctor so that he can further evaluate your condition and possibly get you some good pills.

Take The Mental Illness Quiz at HelloQuizzy

Your result for The Badass Secret Agent test?...

Korban Dallas

Where You are... cool simply follows...

It isnt strength that wins in the end. Its finesse and its skill. You have all these and when a fight breaks out. Your badass abilities come out in the coolest way possible. calm under pressure and a million dollar smile to boot.

Take The Badass Secret Agent test? at HelloQuizzy

the aftermath

*sigh* i am so tired after reformatting my laptop, transferring files, etc. i think i have reformatted my laptop pretty good. i think everything works well so far. but i dunno. this is the first time ever i learned how to reformat a computer. oh well. maybe its just telling me that its time for a new laptop >:D

and my PC desktop, Teresa, named after the Claymore Teresa, who was beautiful and fierce~! she could've just killed Priscilla, but she went soft after meeting Clare. besides, she just changed her eye color and Priscilla almost lost! I just hate the way Teresa died. but when she lived, she was the fiercest ever!

She is still infected with this stupid irremovable virus. but its still usable and im scared to reformat it as i love Teresa so much, i dont wanna make any damage to it. I want it to be perfect. I dunno how am I gonna carry this thing to a store for repair. its so huge! it'd damage my whole style! (sorry Teresa, no offense XD)

so yeah, i'll think of something later. all in all, its been a tiring day, and its not even half of a day! my mouth is getting so dry after taking antihistamines, its so annoying. oh and i got to meet my mom today, so its really awesome eventhough its not that long, coz i still have reportS to do and she still has papers to mark (she's the examiner for PMR).

hum..so yeah, thats all for now. im calming down now, and it really feels good. ~.~

AAAAAAAAAAAAAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

a stupid virus has infected my laptop AND my fab desktop PC!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

how more unlucky can i get??

this virus is really harmful, like it deletes files, and makes the system go haywire. i cant restore and i cant even open my task manager!

urgh!! this is SOOOOOOOOOOOOO freaking stressful!! now i'll have to reformat both my laptop AND my desktop PC!!

I really feel like crying now!!!! 

I HATE YOU VIRUS!! SO VERY MUCH!!

got home and got sick!

hey~ im home and im typing with my fab keyboard on my hot desktop pc. :P

it is really the first thing ever that i set up when i arrived at my room (i stored in a really secret place when i was away). i've missed it SOO much!

but! my room got SOOO dusty! after a while setting things up and all, i sneezed and sneezed like there was no tomorrow! it was CRAZY! and now, the aftermath, i got a really itchy and sore throat, and also a runny nose. and i sneeze every now and then too.

so i went to the pharmacy and bought some medicines. then i bought my dinner but its still on my table, coz in my state right now, i have loss my appetite to all the food in the world. (gosh, im like the queen of drama :P)

anyways, yeah, i really cant afford to get sick right now. with all the reports to be submitted on monday and my exam on wednesday. i feel like screaming my terrible throat out!!

ganbatte kudasai! Liyana-chan! \*.*/

getting ready

2 days to go for the departure from this town. we're leaving on friday. some part of me cant wait to go back to kuching, and some part of me is pretty scared coz we're gonna have the exam shortly after we're back in kuching.

the journey's gonna be long. i think it'll take like 5 hours or so. its gonna be really exciting even though it'll be reeeaaally tiring. i hope all will go well on the journey.

and as for preparation for the journey, i've washed and waxed my car, totally by myself. i did it on sunday morning. so its really gleaming and hot right now. eventhough the process of waxing the car was really, really tiring! but its totally worth it. my lovely car is looking fierce!! oh, i havent got a name for my lovely car. im still thinking of the perfect name~~ ^.^

look at how hot it is, gleaming and looking fabulous and fierce and sexy~~ (gosh, i really am in love with my car! X3)

disappear

urgh..i really hate this too-much-drama environment. juicy drama? i dont mind. stupid drama? GET ME OUT OF HERE!!

I SOOO wanna go somewhere new, like i wanna really run away, leaving behind all the unwanted, unnecessary emotional burden. i wanna go somewhere, just relax and be myself around people who dont know me.

as much as i enjoy being in a spotlight, this time, i just feel like i wanna disappear. be invisible. like i wanna be alone. i wish i could go traveling to another country by myself, go sightseeing, shopping, relaxing, just doing nothing but enjoying myself. but of course, its quite dangerous for a girl to go ANYWHERE alone. its really frustrating!! >.<

then again, i might do surprising stuff in the future. who'd know? ^.~