wah~ 1 delivery!

I just got back from the labour ward. I went there at 8pm just now. My three friends, Ain, Ashie, and Nabila waited from the afternoon.

IT WAS A TORTURE!

there were not so many patients today, so we had to wait for a loooong time to conduct a labor. plus, some complicated labors like pre-term babies or fetus in distress with meconium-stained liquor, we cant conduct those labors. so its really hard to do it.

plus, some of the nurses in the ward hate us. they act like they're really strict and they scolded everyone, student nurses, medical students. they even scold the patients when they dunno how to push! especially the one with the freaky hair net. HATE HER!

so yeah, i cant sleep coz im quite angry with those people. its like they have no respect for people and they think they know everything. and they always seek for people's mistakes and its like they find it satisfying when they can demoralize and embarass somebody. i really cant understand those people. i swear when i become a doctor, i wont want to become like them ever!

anyways, a huuge thanks to those cool nurses and doctors who always teach us something new each day and who are willing to guide us in everything about obstetrics. i love them SO much! X3

anyways, gtg sleep now. im gonna go to kuching for the wedding which i am forced to attend eventhough i still have tons of stuff to finish. i only wanna go there because of mom. she needs me. so yeah, oyasuminasai, bloggie-chan!

twins delivery

i forgot to tell this in my blog yesterday!

so yeah, yesterday afternoon, i watched a twin delivery. the twins were premature at 24 weeks old, one in cephalic presentation, the other breech. the first twin weighed 520g and twin 2 weighed 635g. just this morning, the nurse at the neonatal ICU told me they died hours after the delivery. that kinda proves the neonatal care in Sibu Hospital isnt that good yet. if they had survived, they'd create history for this hospital to be the smallest and youngest babies ever be saved. its really sad that they died.

anyways, its been a good experience to watch a twin AND a breech delivery. its really not that often to happen. *if only i remember to take pics of them! T.T*

oops...the comment thingy! and the corn story :(

my sis has told me she had to sign up for a new account just to post a comment in my blog.

like...whoops..dunno that would be necessary to leave comments here.

so i've found out that that can be edited. so anyone can post comments now, like you can even use "Anonymous" if you're too shy XD

gomen ne, one-chan! i've fixed the problem ^.^b

anyways! i just went to a clinic coz i have something on my right foot. like, i havent been wearing some of my favorite shoes because its painful to walk in them. btw, the doctor said its a "corn". its like hyperkeratoses, where there is hyperproliferation of the keratin layer of the skin. the doctor also said it might be because i always wear high heels. like, hello? everyone wears high heels but why me?? T.T

anyways, i'm under treatment now, and i wont be wearing any high heels any time soon (T.T) so i hope it'll be gone soon coz its so annoying not to wear my favorite shoes! it annoys me when i wanna buy new shoes too (like it hurts when i tried some shoes on, then i ended up not buying the cute ones!). anyways, yeah, corn - begone!!!!!!

Stress, chocolates and not studying :P

those three in the title - my favorites for this week.

First, stress.. monday, I met an o&g doctor. female. kind face. with innocent and good intention, my friends and i decided to join her at the clinic so we can see any cases that are not in the wards. we could never be so wrong. we got scolded for entering the room, and then she didnt teach us much in that hour. We learnt so little and i spent my time checking my watch every 1 minute. it was a torture! since then, i kinda resent this field. well, its not just because of her. I was never really interested in obs n gyn. she just added to my hatred thingy :P

buut, the lecturer, Dr. Elizabeth for last week was really cool! too bad she's resigned! she told us there's some political issues going on in our college. she's really cool and funny. she'll be missed *sniff*

so yeah, by the end of the week, the huuge stress kicked in! i was really exhausted and headache-y when someone called and asked me to do this thing (the thing that i said in the previous entry, like the responsibility i shouldn't be carrying). and i just broke down. that was the time i really felt like i was REALLY gonna lose my mind. it was horrible, like i dunno what to think or feel. so, after some tears and a box of chocolates, i had managed to calm down and reorganize my thoughts. things arent really that bad. its just too many at a time. thank god i didnt lose my mind. i really love my mind :D

anyways, yeah, after the emotional breakdown, seems like i have a lot to catch up. books to read, notes to be made, assignments..they're all waiting for me... and i'm like making a slow dramatic entrance. im basically the laziest medical student ever. but i'll change that.. even if it takes forever XD

Madness of O&G!!

lol, ok..thats a little bit exaggerating. But yeah, I have been really busy since the start of the new posting. Ta-da~ Obstetrics and Gynaecology! This posting is really renown as the busiest posting ever. In my opinion, its an interesting subject, but its really tough and the timetable is just crazzy! Plus, we'll have to wait for hours in the labor room to watch mothers give birth and soon we'll have to perform at least 1 delivery! kya!

Anyways, back to the real life. I just found out that I've told a deep dark secret to a wrong person. I knew it the moment the secret was all out from me. I dunno.. I felt like it'd be good to let it out of me, share it with someone who might understand. But I was SO badly wrong! The person didnt understand at all and started blabbing something that hurt my feelings (i know it wasnt intentional) but it happened. Oh god..that was the most terrible mistake ever! and god! doesnt anybody understand me around here?! This is WHY I dont like opening up to people :P

I really miss my family and my home house and my cats!!!


oh, btw, I passed my paediatric's exam! yay me! and I've bought Alias boxset season 1 and 2 to celebrate it! yay!! XD

my chinese new year celebration

Happy Chinese New Year~! yesterday, we went to Sibu to fetch my sis and her husband from the airport there. then my mom decided to go visit our chinese relatives in Bintangor. the journey there was quite eventful. there was like a 3-4km line of cars on the road, coz there's a horrible accident. the car was completely squashed and there's a body bag at the side of the road. there were police, firemen and paramedics all gathered there. its quite scary.

anyways, the chinese new year celebration was really fun. I got to meet my chinese cousins whom i've never met before. and I got loads of ang-pow XD

anyways, i dunno how to say this, but i just want to let this out of me. there's an unspeakable thing and im feeling like i've been carrying a responsibility that im not supposed to do yet, and im not ready for it. sometimes i feel like i cant stand it anymore. kinda like the stuff that'd make you go "why is this happening to ME?", something like that.

anyways, im hanging in there, there are still loads of positive stuff in my life. ^^

Gong Xi Fa Chai~!

Happy Chinese New Year to all Chinese out there! Its 1.18am and the fireworks craze just stopped. It was really loud all over the neighborhood! Anyways, tomorrow we're gonna visit some of my parents' friends and its gonna be a big feast tomorrow! :D I really hope we'll be able to visit Aunt Leh Hiong in Bintangor the next day. Dad isnt so fond of the idea, just because he's kinda lazy to travel nowadays. But I'll ask mom to talk him into it soon :)

Oh yeah, Ida n abg Jalal will come soon. I hope they'll bring some souvenirs for me! hehe

and "they"'re so shameless and dumb. its so unacceptable...right now, i'm SO ready to get rid of them from my life. but i just dont want to be too far away from them that i couldnt help them later on. well, actually its only the "him" who's i'm worried about. but it could be easier if them both could change coz he's only listening to whatever she said. i hope they'll stop being such dumb idiots soon.

and the little tabby kitty who's been on the stack of woods in the shed since its born has stepped on the ground finally! its like, 1-2 months old already and it never wanted to get down from the stack of woods. and now its playing around with Grey! ...i'm like a proud mother XD

oh, and I just found that the Jasmine tree at the side of our house is kinda habitated by some weird fat green worms!! its so freaky and yucky! i found 3 of them so far and they're just SO fat and green. I think they're kinda disgusting, but its kinda cool too because its the first time i've seen such animal. anyways, as long as they'll turn to butterflies some time, i wont mind so much having the freakish larva on the tree...hehe...

and i've gone to the clinic yesterday, the doc gave me some anti-histamine and antibiotics, and my cough has reduced a bit *yay me!* and i've been taking some vits and all that. Im such a health freak now!

and mom and I baked 2 cakes just now. mom baked a cake named "Australian Cake". and I made a cake named "Layered Book Cake" (fyi, malaysia is so known to have those cakes with weird names like i once saw one, the vampire cake, and some other like cakes with stars' names). anyways, they turned out good eventhough mine's not so good (like the outer part of the cake got burnt but the a bit of the inner part is kinda too soft..hehe..). overall, they taste good! ^.^b

a long entry again XD. well, im off now, jaa~!

sick-again!

I woke up this morning with a sore throat! Its really annoying and uncomfy! and by afternoon, I've been coughing and coughing... and I'm SO gonna have a fever soon..huhuh..anyways, I hope I'll get well soon. Sore throat or getting any sickness doesnt feel so cool :(

oh, btw (I hope this is not gonna be read by some this certain people) but people who are not really my most favorite people are gonna come soon (not my sis n my bro-in-law tho) and like, their pre-arrival has created some problem this few days and I dunno what else is gonna happen AFTER they've arrived! like, its SOOOO gonna spoil my holidays! urgh! baka!

hum.....

nothing much to say really. nothing has really been happening lately. just my laptop has gone mad here and there, but its still hanging in there for me T.T and our house is like, infested by ants! >.< I really hate those black ants. They're just EVERYWHERE and SO crawly and creepy and yucky! Hate them. Just now I've followed an ant trail and I think they have their nest somewhere near a tree's root in front of our house! I'm gonna kill them all tomorrow!! :O

and this school break thingy isnt really helping to my diet. I really love to eat at home and without classes or studies to distract me...its gone worse! *sheesh! I really need a good self-control!*

anyways, cant think of anything else to type. Just a plain ordinary week for me.

Oh, I can't wait to visit my aunt in Bintangor for this Chinese New Year! \^o^/

my 1 week plus school break ~post-exam~

So yeah, just done with the exams. My MCQ was kinda terrible. MEQ was so-so. OSCE's so-so too. My clinical, long case wasn't so good with Dr. Lai and Dr. Cho. I got a bronchial asthma case. And that little brat suddenly cried before i got the chance to examine him properly!!!! *I felt like punching him at that moment!* Anyways! After that, that boy calmed down a bit. I think he wanted something with the cubes thingy but no one could understand his tiny mind (this is literally, no offense intended) so he cried and cried for like half an hour, which completely ruined my perfectly synced and planned clerking and PE time. Oh, well. I really hope I did it. A pass will do. For short case, I got Dr. Khin (thank god!). She was really kind. I got a Down's syndrome case and a cerebral palsy case. The children were really cool! I think I did my short cases pretty well, just a little glitch here and there. But when I think back about my theory exams and my long case, it just makes me worry.

Hum..so yeah, here I am, having my break back at my home home. I feel like I'm relaxing too much, kinda gets boring at some times. I just need something to do! XD