me wants a change!

I'm SOOOO bored of wearing the same clothes every week. its SOOO sad! Its like I have a schedule of wearing what and what and its recycling for every week! I kinda regret that I didnt pack so much for Terengganu. over packing is SOO much better than under packing!

I miss my closet back in Kuching. I need my life back! I NEED NEW CLOTHES! T.T

XD

a LOT of funny things has happened lately! like, SOSOO funny that I laughed out REALLY loud, had tears in my eyes, coughed because i aspirated some of my own saliva and had stitches on my sides!

its kinda embarrassing to tell, but laughter really is the best medicine! (party poopers please stay away! :P)

Our evening Out

today, makcik Hasnah invited us to have lunch at her daughter's house. her family is really nice and friendly and her house is really awesome! and we ate a LOT!

then, in the evening, the family invited us to eat out. at the beach! we went to eat some seafood stuff, like calamari and fish dipped in some flour thingy and deep-fried. also, its no Terengganu without keropok lekor~! and we ate a LOT!

plus, the beach is so beautiful. the water's like really blue and the sand is like clean and white. we wanted to play at the beach but unfortunately it was raining at that time.

yeah, I've eaten loads of stuff lately. people around here find hospitality by feeding their guests as much as their can! XD its bad in a sense that its totally ruining my diet, but i'll give them 5 gold stars for their effort and kindness. I'm loving this place~

Terengganu: post-pissed off XD

hi hi~ just some update of my current life!

we've moved out from the hellish house last week. the house owner has inconsiderately determined to make us pay for the inhabitable house. grr... i cant stop getting so pissed off whenever i think about it. never thought this thing would happen to us, a trusted grown-up has betrayed us. so the moral of the story! take charge! never depend on someone you dont know so well! never trust ANYONE! seeing is believing! adults could be messed up & dumb too! NEVER trust anyone, even if they're your friend's family! NEVER!!!

well, i dont really mean to not trust anyone. i trust some people. trust has to be built over time and experience. i mean like, dont ever just trust anyone.

anyways, we've been doing our electives at Sultanah Nur Zahirah Hospital (i think i got the name right this time XD), at the obstetrics and gynaecology department. we're focusing on the labor ward as we have to fill in our log books.

it was a really nice experience! first of all, the staffs here are VERY nice! only a small percentage is annoying! the nurses greet us and even apologive when bumping shoulders or something, they teach us and all(this is SOOO freaking rare in Sibu Hospital). and they treat patient really well! as opposed to nurses in labor ward in Sibu Hospital where they scolded patients for not doing the pushing thingy so well. i really love this hospital!

and yesterday, I was conducting a delivery, a mother G6P5, i think like, she's a multipara, so the delivery's gonna be a piece of cake. i could never be so wrong! when the baby's head was out, i tried to pull the rest of the baby's body out but it was really hard! then the nurse helped me but she also failed. i totally freaked out! then they called other doctors. Mel found some doctors going out to eat and told them the baby was stuck. and they literally dropped everything and ran to the patient. i jumped to the side and let them save the baby. its really chaotic! though its kinda exciting to watch them running to the rescue. and the baby's safe~! ^_^

and i have fun watching and playing with the babies! they're SOOO cute! i'm still learning how to hold a baby, because i think its really hard to hold a baby properly because they look so fragile and im afraid that i'd drop them or something!

also, i've learned that though the birth is like one of the most miraculous thing, its like the beginning of a life or something, its definitely not the easiest thing in the world. the pain and all, i've witnessed the proof that women are definitely stronger than men! XD

though its really sad that not all kids appreciate this huge sacrifice. if only they knew what their mothers had faced giving life to them, they'd appreciate their parents better.

anyways, yeah, im loving this new place. its perfect! the owner who's an old lady, is REAALLY nice! i think she's like 50-60 years old? and she's cool! like, she travelled all around the world, she wears cool clothes that old women here wont really wear, she speak cool phrases and she even had gone snorkelling! and she's really nice! and she cooks really well! im SOOO glad that i've moved out of the stupid inhabitable shack with stupid greedy money-minded stupid owners to this really nice place.

and Terengganu has loads of nice food. my diet is SO totally busted :'(
oh and their weekends are Friday and Saturday! how weird is that?! i totally love having an early weekend. and there are no Monday Blues here! XD

anyways, i'll update more later. keep on forgetting to get pics from Mel's camera XD

oh oh, last but NOT least! I've watched Grey's Anatomy! until episode 19 for now. i really LOVE the medical stuff they're adding on. made me love GA again. and at first, i kinda love watching Christina with Hunt. I love how they use small gestures. its SOO romantic. but Hunt's pretty messed up. I hope he got a PTSD treatment. and THE proposal Derek made for Mer, is just soooo romantic! *melts*but, i super hate Lexi, i hate the interns, hate those unnecessary additions!

oh, and I just watched House epi 19! that's FREAKY! its about the locked in syndrome, like being locked inside your own body. thats the scariest thing ever! I SO love House!

coffee or tea?

"would you like some coffee or tea or me?"

the best pick-up line ever! (the cheesiest of course) XD

SOOOO FREAKIN' PISSED!!!

when we're planning to go "Prison Break" out of this place, we received a message from someone who's the middle person of this whole renting shit, saying something like, the rent of this crappy place has been settled, and the supposedly RM250 per room has changed to RM300 per room. and we're renting for 5 weeks, so the 1 week extra (4 weeks=1 month) counted as ONE FREAKING MONTH?! so we're gonna have to pay rm300 per person, with total amount of rm1200, for this FCUKING crappy inhabitable full-of-torture little prison! like rm1200 per month? we could have just rented a whole freaking house! like how bloody crazy is that???!!

and now, because the rent is all paid and all, we couldnt just go out without paying the ridiculous price for this SOOOO-NOT-WORTH-IT place!

gosh! i've never been this mad! how could this person scammed us? its not like we've worked or anything that we could afford to pay a 1 month rent for just 1 week. hell, if we could afford it, we wouldnt have accepted this crappy place in the first place! this is just SOOO inhumane! sooo inconsiderate! and we really trusted this person. I'm SO sorry, its just too impossible to accept, its just too much!

now, my mom has found her friend's house thats so much better for us to rent for RM150 per person. we're gonna visit the house tomorrow. and for this crappy place, we're gonna try to sort it out with the house owner. i just hope it will turn out well. god, please help us!

captivity of negativity

yup, we're imprisoned here. i really reaaally REAAAALLY HATE this place!!! its ruining my life! its eating me up! its really the worst place i've ever stayed at!! i think im going NUTS over this!

first of all, yep, the size, the stupidly small suffocating size of the room, with windows smaller than my toilet's windows back home. its really f*cking suffocating!

then, all the distance between the bathroom, and sharing a freaking bathroom with like, 10 other people? please just kill me now!

then, its SOOOOOOOOO friggin! HOT! its driving me CRAZY! its like im being in a small stupid prison being set in a huge oven. Terengganu's climate's really hot too! im sweating like crazy in here!

and the friggin bathroom has no ceiling! AND, unlucky enough as we are, there are REPAIRMEN REPAIRING THE FCUKING ROOF!! like they've been working for 2 days since we've been here! so its really troublesome because its IMPOSSIBLE to take shower when its freaking hot!

this stupid room is SOOOO pushing me off my edge!!!!!!!!!!!!! i wanna go home!!!! T.T

uh...dunno where to start. we arrived at our rented room yesterday. its so much worse that what i've expected.

i hate changes because it robs me of my familiarity with my surrounding and my belongings. thats what i hate the most about changes. but in travelling, i dont mind that, i can adapt, somehow. but please please! dont take my freedom away!

ok, the room we're staying now is for 2. its a ~2m x 2m room, yup, its tiny!!!! with just a small window, so its kinda like night even though its 7.39 in the morning right now and i feel like there's not enough oxygen for me! plus a ~1.8m x 1.2m bed, there's not much room left here! and there are no closets! so we're practically just living out of our "backpacks" for this 5 weeks! and dont dream about having a kitchen! >.< and Id have to walk around the house (~10m) to the bathroom! its outside of the rented house and i have to walk like around like from the front to the back of the house, which is really troublesome! adding to our misery, there is a bird cage right in front of our door and the freaking birds cant stop (i dunno how to say) speaking and yelling! (yup, they speak, somehow) which woke me up really early.

and just found out that there is NO mall in Terengganu?! *SHOKKU*

its really SAD! I HATE THIS PLACE! HATE IT! DAIKIRAI!

and we're gonna live here for 5 weeks?! i feel like crying! i really hate things like this, kinda like a spoiler to our supposedly vacation. kinda like having a huge rock in your shoes.

i hope i can adapt to this situation. i super HATE whining, but i cant help it this time. this is gonna be challenging. i miss Teresa and Venus and the clothes that I've left in my closet, heck I miss my whole room! God, give me strength! I really need it!!!! I CAN DO THIS!!

(will upload pics later, is quite disheartened right now *sobsob*)

journey to the west

west malaysia, that is! ^_^ now staying at Sarah's house, and we're going to Terengganu tomorrow.

Flight last night was pretty much disastrous in our "fun-from-the-beginning-till-end-of-journey"! first, we're quite late to board, and we were starving! so we went to get something from McD, and the service there was quite slow! so we rushed to the gate and into the plane, found out that AirAsia now has numbered seats! (we didnt know as its been a while we got on AirAsia flights) so yeah, Amy, Sarah and I were separated in the plane T.T and I was starving and the food was with Amy. and the inflight food was pretty expensive. uhuhhuhu..

anyway! I met my high school teacher on the plane! it felt kinda weird. we were kinda like arch enemies back then! so yeah, we talked and chitchated and all. it IS really weird! like, gosh, cant believe i could be talking like that with her! XD so yeah, I also got the chance to apologize for being difficult towards her. that feels SOOOO freaking good! i'm so glad that we met last night.

oh, on pet society, I got a piano for $1500 worth (3 GMBs). i really love it~ ^_^

hum... has been lazying around this whole day, gonna go do some shopping with Sarah tonight. so jaa ne~!

Procrastination

its like watching myself self-destruct in a slow motion in a long-term. *sighy sigh*

in the vicinity of a hatee

close but not-so-dear? what would you do?

1. ignore them, they are just midgets in your life, they dont bother you at all though you hate them.
2. ignore them, but in deep down inside, or not-so-deep down, you're plotting revenges from putting a bug in their food to pushing them off a 1000 feet cliff with alligators and piranhas and sharp jagged rocks at the bottom.
3. passive aggressively, show them you hate them, like accidentally breaking their favorite cup.
4. those actions do not speak loud enough! tell them to their freaking faces! *grr! you #%^&!*
5. actions DO speak louder than words, if you know how to do it. punch them in their freaking faces!!! *RAWR!!*
6. why act violent when you can play psychological games AND keep your hands clean? torture them mentally! *muahahahahaha!!!*

ah, sorry for some excessive violence contents! im just ranting from exam stress and all *lol, the luxury of blame :P*, ranting IS a really good way to release stress aside other stuff (it has been raining 2 evenings straight! cant play any sports! T_T).

and though i dont deny that hatred's existence in our life, I'm not condoning to any violent acts as stated above.
okay, setting all the violence aside, here's some pacifists choices:
1. forgive them
2. try to love them
3. try to change them to something you love
4. hatred is poison! plant love and exterminate all hatred! *i do believe in fairy, i do, i do! (repeat 100x)*

hum.. i dunno which one would I choose. life is all about choices. choose whichever you feel is right for you and other people (dont get me started on this topic! some people pissed me off regarding this choice thing! grr!!)

awkward encounter and the solution is..?

what would you do if you walked in into something and realized that you've been wrongly at the wrong place at the wrong time? kinda like you walk in your bald principal's office while he's putting on his wig, or you walked in on an occupied but unlocked fitting room while the occupant is changing, or you walked in on a friend watching pron stuff or, anything embarrassing!

so what would you do?

1. scream! and run away as fast as you can
2. speechless and expressionless quickly back away, and when its safe run away as fast as you can
3. speechless and expressionless slowly back away, and when its safe run away as fast as you can
4. went "ah! .... ha-ha-ha" with a sorry smile, apologize then back away, and when its safe run away as fast as you can
5. just apologize quickly and then run away as fast as you can
6. confront whatever it is right there right then and expect some explanation, and maybe you could also scold them for doing something thats not right
7. scream and faint (lol)

hum..what else? maybe i can add later XD
so yeah, my option is no. 2! sometimes 4 or 1 (yeah, i'm the "flight" person when it comes to survival instinct XD)

seriously though, being at the wrong place at the wrong time, witnessing something you'd rather not, is certainly not the best feeling in the entire world!

me busy bee

hi hi~ hisashiburi da ne~

I've been quite busy lately, with the clinics in the morning, seminars in the afternoon and our project and all. so yeah, my free time is usually used with relaxation and recreation. poor bloggie has been neglected XD.

anyways, it really feels like time is flying super fast pass us. it felt just like yesterday i had the monday blues and tomorrow's friday, its almost weekend. next week, we're gonna have an exam on Thursday, thus thats the last day of our 4th year study! unbelievable, ne? I'll be going off to Terengganu by next week, we're gonna stay there for like 5 weeks or so, and then I'll be going home for the holiday and like, by June, i think, we're gonna return as a final year student! the past 4 years kinda feel like a dream, somehow.

tomorrow's the presentation for our study. cant wait to get it over with. really dislike these kinda stuff!

i still need to read a LOT of stuff. feels like im still at the rock bottom now. tasukete~! (influence of anime is making me use Japanese words XD)

speaking of which, I'm watching a bit of D.Gray-Man now, its a nice anime. its about exorcists in an organization trying to collect a powerful thing named Innocence and destroy creatures named Akuma so to save their souls (they are made from dead people with dark magic or something). though it kinda reminds me of FMA and bleach because the character looks kinda like Ed Elric, and he has a special arm thingy. and the people that works in the organization kinda reminds me of the alchemists. and Bleach, the similarities are like, the exorcists = shinigami, Innocence = zanpakuto, akuma = hollows (akuma also has levels and evolutions), and the akuma is a thing produced from dead people. though D.Gray-Man's setting is more modern than one of Soul Society's. all in all, this anime is quite nice, I think I'm getting hooked XD. hope it wont be disappointing~

oh, I've also just finished reading the latest Claymore manga chapter. hum...its getting more and more complicated, with a new arrival of scary creatures. cant wait to read the next chapter~

hum..what else do I wanna say? its like so annoying when you're speechless when you want to write something, but when you cant write it down, the thoughts all coming down on you.

anyways, i think thats all for now. jaa ne~