my boring update..hu hu hu

Its been a while since I updated this blog. I've been SOOO busy and SOOO lazy! that almost sound oxymoronic! well, if I wasn't busy, I got lazy..hehe

anyways, firstly, last week, Ragnild suddenly asked if I wanted to go to Japan for the medical elective. I gave it a thought and figured that oh well, it won't hurt to try, and I'd LOVE to see Japan! it'd be nice to get away, experience something different and all. *knocks myself in the head for not thinking about this like, months before! >.<* so yeah, sent an email to Tohru-sensei from Jikei Byouin, waited in angst, 3 days later he replied that there is no more spot for the elective. how do I feel? of course a little disappointed. but of course there are its pros and cons. maybe there is a silver lining in the clouds in Terengganu, maybe the grass is greener in Terengganu. hu hu hu hu second, I've been super lazy!!! the internet connection is so freaking slow, its killing my mood to do online stuff. I'm lazy to upload pics from Mel's camera to my compies. I'm lazy to race at the stadium in Pet Society because sometimes I raced perfectly but some cheating pet raced past me at the last minute *so unfair!! >.<* but I'm kinda poor in PS..huhu..

third, last tuesday, my friends and I went to Jong's crocodile farm and in the afternoon we went to Ranchan waterfall again! XD we watched people feeding crocodiles and the really HUUGE arapaima gigas fish (we also fed them some bread!) and tour around the place. there are other animals too. i couldn't resist poking a crocodile with a stick! it was lying around, sun bathing when we came. I saw a long stick lying right there, and its other end is near the croc. I poked it at the head, it did nothing. when the stick touched its hand *really gently!* it got *RAWR!* it was really scary! thank god we're at the other side XD. other than that, we played with some rabbits, birds and other animals. I don't really like the condition there though. some places are dirty and i didnt really see food inside the cages. could it be a big case of animal cruelty?! i hope not.

then because the day was freaking hot, we went to Ranchan waterfall. we swam around, I was getting the hang of swimming with a float. hehe. I was feeling foolishly daring to climb on the waterfall. even though its just a small waterfall, the current is still quite fast and the rocks are slippery! I had a little accident where my feet slipped when I wanted to climb down! I scraped my right elbow and my legs. its really painful! thankfully Qish was there and he saved me from tumbling down the rest of the waterfall thingy. and then at the lower level, I jumped! its like scary and exciting at the same time. whats fun without the exhilarating adrenaline rush?? (even though its just a small jumpXD) hehe.. all in all, its FUN!

so yeah, as time flies, its quite surprising that we've been in Serian for 3 weeks. it felt just like yesterday that we just moved to the house. Mel, Amy and I went out just hanging around just now. we reminisce our past, like some memories when we were in the previous year. it felt really weird that by this June, we're entering our final year as a medical student, should there is no obstacles.

hum...so yeah, thats all i guess.. cant think of anything else to write in here. I want to add some pics but I'm lazy. maybe tomorrow. sheesh! procrastinating and being lazy again....

...in....dire...need....of....retail....therapy...!!! X3

how mantis learned patience

first of all, I really hate this GPRS connection! It really IS the slowest connection I've ever had. and its MOODY! sometimes I can't even get it connected! >.< style="font-style: italic;">need to do something else to get an optimum outcome (whatever the heck that is). and when I was doing only one thing on my laptop, kinda feels like I'm wasting something (I don't even know whats missing, but its really a strong nagging feeling). So, Unitasking doesn't exist in my vocab! (it never really existed! XD)

Anyways, yeah, I dunno why I'm ranting about this. all in all, I need to learn patience.

meat in front of my face

you know when a cat or whatever-animal-it-is is like STARVING, and someone dangle meat in front of its face? and then it didn't get the meat??

that feeling SUCKS!

it makes you start thinking of "what ifs" scenario.

If
such a little word that carries SOOOO huge of a difference.

urgh!

Dan Brown's new movie and book!

okay, so maybe I was kinda late to find out about these things >.<
I was flipping Sony magazine when OMG, I found out that Angels and Demons, one of my most favorite books, is made into film and it'll be out in May this year~! it should great! they even had to reconstruct the Vatican City in California as the film production is banned in the real Vatican City after the Da Vinci Code! how cool is that?! I hope it would be better than the Da Vinci Code though, that movie's just so-so to me, and like, I've never pictured Robert Langdon being Tom Hanks! I've always liked Angels and Demons better than the Da Vinci Code, so please don't disappoint me~!! (i love the ambigrams! X3)

I know Dan Brown's books are quite controversial, especially in the religious setting, but I think it all depends on how people accept things. like, doctors dealing with infective diseases doesn't mean they'd get infected, ne? (lol, some metaphore). anyways, different people have different thoughts. some people got very defensive and got insulted easily when talking about religions. its like, people is always finding faulty things, like if you accepted everyone's opinions about cars, you probably wouldn't buy one forever! so yeah, for me, we don't have to get insecure about ourselves and people always, always have the tendencies to focus and exaggerate on bad stuff (humans are like vultures to misery, a quote from i-cant-remember-where), so you'll have to accept that part of a human being! and there are always stuff that people cant agree with together. so i think its okay to listen to what people are saying though it doesn't mean you have to like/follow/accept everything.

okay thats me rambling XD, so yeah, and the new book from Dan Brown is The Solomon Key. its about Robert Langdon's 3rd adventure. can't wait to get my hands on it! X3

Ranchan and the gloating

I'm so sleepy right now, I had on call just now until like 11 pm. then we went for dinner at a new place. and i got some flies in my fries! >.<>.< style="font-style: italic;">Only THEN, they did renal punch, and only THEN, they changed the diagnosis from acute appendicitis to acute pyelonephritis.

and of course, I'd like to brag that I did better than that doctor. haha!

so, thats all for now. oyasuminasai~!

he who taught us how to think

hehe.. today's outcome is unexpectedly good. Dr. Annuar has made our lives chaotic for the last 24 hours. the time before he came, we studied and studied like we're about to go for an exam. mistakes are not tolerable.

however, today, he strode in, smiling. we're still apprehensive though. who dares to not be afraid of Dr. Annuar? XD

we discussed only 1 case today, Sarah's case. its about UTI with uncontrolled diabetes mellitus. he could challenge every answer that we gave him. its kinda interesting to see his way of thinking.

and he also shared his experience with our faculty's politics. though I dont really know about politics and stuff, I've heard gossips about those big men in our faculty. actually Dr. Annuar has been told to be the bad evil guy because he questions those men a lot and he is not afraid to express his opinions about things that he deem not right. and hearing to his side of the story, i think there is truth, and i cant help but think that those men in our faculty are pretty narrow-minded and its a loss to let go of Dr. Annuar. he's leaving UNIMAS by this June maybe. though his classes are terrifying, we could learn a hell lot from him.

so yeah, he spent quite some time talking about those stuff today. i feel quite enlightened to the situation XD. i think he's a good politician. he knows how to speak and defend himself. i love how he's so confident of himself, he's the epitome of a hot shot cardiologist with the god-complex! and somehow it suits him, like he deserves to have a god-complex, in my opinion XD. powerful people are awesome!

uh..sounds like I'm having a Stockholm Syndrome, in a way that I'm taking sides with the supposedly evil guy? XD

oh oh, and i love the way he "worships" this profession, saying that being a doctor is a noble profession. doctors should know how to discipline yourself and how to lead. however, patients always come first, and we'll have to respect the patients and treat with a smile ^_^. but we'll definitely be sacrificing our lives.

because all the ranting about UNIMAS, also something about Malaysian politics that I'm so ignorant about, some Sibu politics? (whats with the guys and politics??!), he didn't have time to go for the wardround and see all the patients (thank god I didn't have to present!! XD)

so yeah, i really love the class we had with him today. yeah, he's still sarcastic and he said things as it is. and i still can remember how terrifying he was when he was teaching us in our 3rd year. I remember the whole week with him was pretty chaotic. so, Im really thankful for the "sunshinyness" today. definitely a motivator to be the best doctor. hope the motivation will last! hehe

butterflies in my stomach

Hi, long time no see~ My friends and I went back to Kuching last weekend, and turned out that the internet at our apartment is having some problem :(. so, this weekend, I spent my time going out, shopping, eating and playing the Sims 2. I killed my vampire husband, I forgot it was daylight so I didnt have him sleep in the coffin. its pretty sad. it took me quite some time to find a vampire.huhu

anyways, tomorrow, a guy will come and visit us. he is a powerful man, very self-assured. he makes my heart goes faster everytime i think of him. i feel butterflies in my stomach at the thought of his face. the sound of his voice sends shivers down my back. i can't sleep well. i've lost my appetite. and he's my motivation to go to the hospital and clerk cases.

no, im not in love. hehe (how melodramatic)
im very terrified of this man.

he is one of what my sister called "the malignant lecturers". he has very high expectations of the students. he is not afraid to show his distaste in our stupidity, our laziness, our faults. he is coming for like just a few hours tomorrow and yet he has totally made us go haywire. im like, so terrified that i've thought of taking some digoxin at our pharmacy visit today. well, maybe just one, and in front of a cardiologist. hehe.

the pic taken by my so-last-year-phone-with-VGA-camera. hehe

well, the positive sides are, he is a very good lecturer and when he is in a good mood, you'll learn soooo much from him. and like i've said, he is the motivator for us to wake up and start working! if a lecturer's too nice and lenient, we would definitely turn into lazy stupid useless medical students.

anyways, for us, its like a huge crisis. I dunno why exactly are we really horribly terrified towards this one man. like, he's just gonna scold us, and make us feel like crap. this will only be like for a few hours tomorrow and he's gone at the end of the day. its not like we're gonna die! and yet we kinda feel that way. maybe being verbally abuse is worse than dying? or is it because our seniors and colleagues have been spreading and exaggerating the fear towards him until we all have folie-a-deux, culminating PHOBIA towards him. hum...maybe. or maybe it really is the result of his verbal abuse that we're so scared and scarred of him.

well, all in all, we're busting our heads off today, i clerked almost all patients in the female ward because I've been forcefully appointed as a sub-group leader and I had to allocate every patient for each student. and we have to polish back our rusty physical examination skills after months of the other postings.

tomorrow, we are ready to by martyrs. so it feels like.

What I did during my CNY break~

hey hey, I'm back~ sorry for not updating, bloggie! its just that when at home, you have so much to do and so much family-time that I didnt have the time to get on my laptop. besides, Ain and Indah have been installing God-knows-what and playing games on my laptop.

1. watch TV almost all day long
watching action movies with my mom is funny! she's easily panicked and would start telling the actors what they should do. and we'd scream and yell together XD. watching cartoons with Indah is fun. kinda brings out the child in me. very relaxing! its in a totally different world, with unicorns and rainbows! XD
I'm a fan of fairly oddparents, spongebob squarepants, powerpuff girls and dexter's lab X3

2. went to the market and grocery-shopping with mom
well, I didn't really go to the fish market. I hate the smell and the combination with the wet floor would totally trash my Hush Puppies! I just wait in the car XD. grocery shopping's kinda fun. got some tips on where best to buy what and the sorts. besides i just love shopping, even if its groceries. ^^
oh, on wednesday, mom bought some shell seafood, I dont really know what they are. but they're really cheap at that time, she said. i think they're clams? so yeah, those clams were still alive when we bought them. its kinda cool and freaky at the same time. i dont really like seeing my food when its alive! anyways, they tasted good! seafood always is. hehe


3. cook with mom
Cooking's FUN! cooking together is funner! I help my mom, kinda like the sous-chef. I usually chopped onions, garlics, potatoes or whatever. and yesterday we made some pau's. its really fun and easy to make~ i really love making it! we made chicken pau and coconut pau. as tradition, coconut pau is marked with a dot of green coloring n top of it. and its not ME if I didnt improvise, so I made a smiley face on one pau~ ^^ kinda sad to eat it though XD
oh, we also made some cookies and 2 cakes. Its really fun!


4. playing with Aya!
I really love playing with Aya-chan! she's reaaally cute and active and playful! sometimes its really tiring! i now know how hard it is to take care of kids. Aya-chan is growing really fast, it seems. she's 7 months old today~ she already knows how to sit, creep really fast, and walk really fast in a walker. she loves cats, and she always chases the cats because she wanted to touch them so the cats are really scared of that little creature XD. she has the cutest cheeks and she makes the cutest sounds too. she doesnt really like staying still and she keeps on asking people to carry her around. hum..I miss her already!! T.T


5. playing with the cats!
haha~ cant miss this! I love playing with my kitties! especially Nengneng. It has the cutest kitty eyes! Kawaii!! X3


6. eating!
Home-cooked food is irresistible! Totally trashed my diet.. I'm SO weak.

Hum...I think those all are summary of my holiday. Its really fun, and I really miss home~ never thought at this age, I'd still be homesick XD

XOXO~