play pretend

when you've given up on making things actually better.
the other alternative, shut down your emotions
and play pretend :P

btw, my main distraction of my stress now is I'm gonna redecorate my bedroom.
Its a REAALLY messy place right now, just because I don't feel like tidying it up. Hee...mom's gonna flip if she saw the state of my room right now :P
But, seriously, I wanna turn it into my sanctuary, relaxing, soothing, and totally ME! ME! ME!


Step 1: change curtain (plan on Saturday)
ideas:
1. white curtain with black lace
2. black curtain
3. black and white damask curtain (seems like impossible to find this pattern though!! argh!)

alright, one step at a time..can't wait!!!