no, I'm not a smoker.
though, I think I understand how its like when a smoker's been diagnosed with lung cancer.
I'd regret all the cigarettes I've been smoking. I'd ask how did I get here. I'd feel like if I could turn back time, I'd change something. what would happen if I did everything differently. and of course, time is running out. the feeling of impending DEATH! yup, that's regret all right. HUGE regret.
oh, dear, oh, dear God al-mighty, I really need a divine intervention to overcome all this. I feel like I'm not strong enough. I tried to summon my strength so, so many times. It's really hard to build up confidence and it just takes seconds to tear it down. Questioning and doubting myself, it's not really good for my self-esteem. Saying "don't know" is quite unacceptable in the medical world. everything leads to a question, a question would lead to another, everything has a reason behind it.
But, I don't know a lot of things, I am not perfect. And that's how the cookie crumbles.
*doesn't know what to think anymore!!!!*
Saturday, March 20, 2010
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Black & White college dinner last Sunday
just an update about the annual college dinner we had last Sunday. I've been so lazy to update this blog lately!
anyway, its just AWESOME. some links from my lovely bff's blogs:
sarah's blog
mel's blog
The preparation was SOOO fun! We've been busy finding the right clothes, shoes, accessories, bags, etc etc. Its really fun. It brought passion to our shopping! So yeah, the most fun part was when we've got to put together every preparation in ourselves. I really love my outfit, its a full black skirt, with a white lolita blouse and a black corset. and since my blouse has already lotsa ruffles, I decided to top it all together with a simple lace-y scarf & tudung. Oh, also my black ankle boots with a simple clutch. Its me, and I felt so happy, even though breathing and eating was a bit hard with the corset on.
And its REALLY fun to see other people's outfits too, everyone looked so lovely that night. although some guys came in with just t-shirts *seriously!* also, the food was not really great (I only really live the dessert part), nevertheless, everyone had fun.
last but not least, we took LOTS of pics:
and lots more can be found on our FBs~
anyway, its just AWESOME. some links from my lovely bff's blogs:
sarah's blog
mel's blog
The preparation was SOOO fun! We've been busy finding the right clothes, shoes, accessories, bags, etc etc. Its really fun. It brought passion to our shopping! So yeah, the most fun part was when we've got to put together every preparation in ourselves. I really love my outfit, its a full black skirt, with a white lolita blouse and a black corset. and since my blouse has already lotsa ruffles, I decided to top it all together with a simple lace-y scarf & tudung. Oh, also my black ankle boots with a simple clutch. Its me, and I felt so happy, even though breathing and eating was a bit hard with the corset on.
And its REALLY fun to see other people's outfits too, everyone looked so lovely that night. although some guys came in with just t-shirts *seriously!* also, the food was not really great (I only really live the dessert part), nevertheless, everyone had fun.
last but not least, we took LOTS of pics:
and lots more can be found on our FBs~
Friday, March 12, 2010
Family-friendly Facebook
yeah, seriously, one distant cousin/aunt added me as their friend, all the extended family came rushing to add me as their friend. its like a domino effect! soon I'll have the whole extended family in my network! like, seriously, I don't really know you that well. Sorry, I'm not really a family person, as I actually spent most of my life away from my original home. and I see those people like once in every 1-2 years. and I'm always with a smile.
And, its quite annoying, some of them are just getting to know me, asking why I was so different. Like, seriously, I show my true self only to my nuclear family and my close friends. And everyone does that, like the level of showing your true self is different to the level of how well you know someone.
And I don't get people who like to add people they don't know. Also the people who like to have as many friends as possible in their network, like its some kind of competition to see how many friends you have. Maybe its just a way to imaginarily to make them feel popular or something. And don't get me started on those idiots with lame pick-up lines. We'd reject them in a knee-jerk reflex.
Anyway, thats all. bye~
And, its quite annoying, some of them are just getting to know me, asking why I was so different. Like, seriously, I show my true self only to my nuclear family and my close friends. And everyone does that, like the level of showing your true self is different to the level of how well you know someone.
And I don't get people who like to add people they don't know. Also the people who like to have as many friends as possible in their network, like its some kind of competition to see how many friends you have. Maybe its just a way to imaginarily to make them feel popular or something. And don't get me started on those idiots with lame pick-up lines. We'd reject them in a knee-jerk reflex.
Anyway, thats all. bye~
Friday, March 5, 2010
the art of bargaining
today, I went out to buy some ink for my beloved printer, Epson Stylus CX5500. Turned out that I couldn't print stuff without even one unnecessary color finished. Like, I just wanted to print out my case write up in black and white, however, the cyan color is all finished, so, my printer wouldn't print anything. its really weird to me. I have yet to find the reason.
so, I went out to buy all 3 other colors - cyan, magenta & yellow. I went to Saberkas, of course, the electronic stuff heaven. first, went to Boulevard IT store, the ink cartridge is RM33 each, non-negotiable. Then, went to check at Sri Sarjana, it's RM35 each, however, with my bargaining skills, the store owner reduced it to RM32 each, total RM 96 for all 3 cartridges. HOWEVER, because of my ultimate bargaining power, I managed to get them all for just RM95~~! (just RM1 less XD)
So yeah, I went back feeling content and proud. I managed to get them RM10 cheaper! woo~ freaking-hoo~!
so, I went out to buy all 3 other colors - cyan, magenta & yellow. I went to Saberkas, of course, the electronic stuff heaven. first, went to Boulevard IT store, the ink cartridge is RM33 each, non-negotiable. Then, went to check at Sri Sarjana, it's RM35 each, however, with my bargaining skills, the store owner reduced it to RM32 each, total RM 96 for all 3 cartridges. HOWEVER, because of my ultimate bargaining power, I managed to get them all for just RM95~~! (just RM1 less XD)
So yeah, I went back feeling content and proud. I managed to get them RM10 cheaper! woo~ freaking-hoo~!
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
*blankity* *blankity* BLANK!
yup, I'm BLANK! and tomorrow's the midterm exam for medical posting!
I have again, relied too much on the luxury of procrastination, also dwelling and enjoying too much the well-known false sense of security it gives me.
I have been trapped in the escape into the virtual world. wasting too much time on playing games and watching drama/movies.
I know very well I'm gonna regret what I'm doing, and yet I'm still cheating myself, being tempted by the virtual escape.
So yeah, after parting with the sweet fantasy, I'm back to the harsh reality. Its very horrible, but its very true. yup, reality's a BITCH from hell. there's no escaping it. so, don't mess with it. it'd be really ugly.
*sigh* what can I do to change myself? (wish I could make myself do things by just a click like in The Sims!)
only *I* myself can change me, only *I* myself can help ME!
I have again, relied too much on the luxury of procrastination, also dwelling and enjoying too much the well-known false sense of security it gives me.
I have been trapped in the escape into the virtual world. wasting too much time on playing games and watching drama/movies.
I know very well I'm gonna regret what I'm doing, and yet I'm still cheating myself, being tempted by the virtual escape.
So yeah, after parting with the sweet fantasy, I'm back to the harsh reality. Its very horrible, but its very true. yup, reality's a BITCH from hell. there's no escaping it. so, don't mess with it. it'd be really ugly.
*sigh* what can I do to change myself? (wish I could make myself do things by just a click like in The Sims!)
only *I* myself can change me, only *I* myself can help ME!
taking the cheese out of cheesy pick-up lines
when I was surfing the net instead of studying.. found some funny responses to some cheesy pick-up lines XD
Male: If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put I and U togather
Female: Oh really, because if I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put F and U
together.
Male: Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
Female: did it hurt when they kicked you out of hell?
He says "Where have you been all my life"
She says "Hiding from you....how the hell did you find me?"
Male: I would die for you...
Female: Prove it
He: So what do you do for a living?
She: Female impersonator.
"Is this seat empty?"
"Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down."
"So, wanna go back to my place?"
"Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?"
"I'd like to call you. What's your number?"
"It's in the phone book."
"But I don't know your name."
"That's in the phone book too."
"What sign were you born under?"
"No Parking."
"I know how to please a woman."
"Then please leave me alone."
"Haven't we met before?"
"Yes, I'm the receptionist at the Mental Hospital."
"I want to give myself to you."
"Sorry, I don't accept cheap gifts."
"I can tell that you want me."
"Ohhhh. You're so right. I want you... to leave."
"Hey, baby, What's your sign?"
"Stop."
"Hey cutie, how 'bout you and I hitting the hot spots?"
"Sorry, I don't date outside my species."
"Your body is like a temple."
"Sorry, there are no services today."
"I'd go through anything for you."
"Good! Let's start with your bank account."
"I would go to the end of the world for you."
"Yes, but would you stay there?"
"Your place or mine?"
"Both. You go to yours and I'll go to mine."
nothing against men~ just against some cheesy pick up lines uttered by idiots. XD
Male: If I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put I and U togather
Female: Oh really, because if I could rearrange the alphabet, I'd put F and U
together.
Male: Did it hurt when you fell from heaven?
Female: did it hurt when they kicked you out of hell?
He says "Where have you been all my life"
She says "Hiding from you....how the hell did you find me?"
Male: I would die for you...
Female: Prove it
He: So what do you do for a living?
She: Female impersonator.
"Is this seat empty?"
"Yes, and this one will be too if you sit down."
"So, wanna go back to my place?"
"Well, I don't know. Will two people fit under a rock?"
"I'd like to call you. What's your number?"
"It's in the phone book."
"But I don't know your name."
"That's in the phone book too."
"What sign were you born under?"
"No Parking."
"I know how to please a woman."
"Then please leave me alone."
"Haven't we met before?"
"Yes, I'm the receptionist at the Mental Hospital."
"I want to give myself to you."
"Sorry, I don't accept cheap gifts."
"I can tell that you want me."
"Ohhhh. You're so right. I want you... to leave."
"Hey, baby, What's your sign?"
"Stop."
"Hey cutie, how 'bout you and I hitting the hot spots?"
"Sorry, I don't date outside my species."
"Your body is like a temple."
"Sorry, there are no services today."
"I'd go through anything for you."
"Good! Let's start with your bank account."
"I would go to the end of the world for you."
"Yes, but would you stay there?"
"Your place or mine?"
"Both. You go to yours and I'll go to mine."
nothing against men~ just against some cheesy pick up lines uttered by idiots. XD
Monday, March 1, 2010
Defeating Dr. Edgar Zomboss!
....with Plants! haha~
2. Mini games: LOTS of them, some of my favorites are zombotany, wallnut bowling and beghouled!
3. Puzzles: 2 main parts, breaking vases and I, Zombie
4. Survival: Play a long-term, strategic game against zombies.
5. Zen Garden: They awarded you with plants to keep in your zen garden. Its fun to collect them
oh, btw, Dr. Edgar Zomboss is kinda like the boss of the zombies, in which you'd encounter in a long, gruelling battle!
and lets not forget the cool, catchy music video at the end of the game! XD
So, yeah, this game totally ROCKS!totally addictive, totally 5/5 stars! <3
p.s.: pics and video credit to http://theachatesfactor.wordpress.com/2009/05/19/review-plants-vs-zombies/
yup, I'm totally CRAZY about this game.
this game consists of 5 main parts.
1. Adventure mode. where you can choose plants, each with its own strength and weakness, to protect your home against zombies. the zombies also come with different types, each with its own strength and weakness too. there are 5 levels: day, pool, night, fog and roof. each requires different strategies with different zombies attacking and different choice of plants needed.
this game consists of 5 main parts.
1. Adventure mode. where you can choose plants, each with its own strength and weakness, to protect your home against zombies. the zombies also come with different types, each with its own strength and weakness too. there are 5 levels: day, pool, night, fog and roof. each requires different strategies with different zombies attacking and different choice of plants needed.
3. Puzzles: 2 main parts, breaking vases and I, Zombie
4. Survival: Play a long-term, strategic game against zombies.
5. Zen Garden: They awarded you with plants to keep in your zen garden. Its fun to collect them
oh, btw, Dr. Edgar Zomboss is kinda like the boss of the zombies, in which you'd encounter in a long, gruelling battle!
and lets not forget the cool, catchy music video at the end of the game! XD
So, yeah, this game totally ROCKS!totally addictive, totally 5/5 stars! <3
p.s.: pics and video credit to http://theachatesfactor.wordpress.com/2009/05/19/review-plants-vs-zombies/
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