love, what the heck is love? is it a big thing? a small thing? is it wonderful? is it blind? is it a gift from god? is it the devil's play? is it stupid? does it make you feel, look or do stupid?
well, its a lot of things. we cant really see thing from just one view, can we? we need to look at it from different perspectives. no judgment.
to see things from different views. kinda like
is that person pessimistic or just being realist?
is he idealist or just being optimistic?
is he selfish or just protecting himself?
well, something like that. a kinda huge drama has evolved. i tried not to care, since i dont really like dramas (i only like watching them on TV). but as the saying goes, you cant choose your family. in a psychological, selfish context, im stuck. in the morality context, im making a sacrifice for my loved ones. so which one is it? hehe.
so yeah, the core problem here is, love. dont wanna really go into details about this, coz its actually confidential! hehe. however in this case, love has made a person blind (psychologically) and has involved too much hope and faith. kinda like they have been watering this tree of love and the roots of hope and faith has gone waaaay down deep, its hard to extract it even though this tree of love has been pulled out. yup. gosh, how poetic can i be? haha
so yeah, sometimes we think like, how stupid A is? cant s/he see that B is just playing with her/him? but in faith context, where you can believe in anything illogical, A wont see the logic in it, A will just be focusing on the roots of faith and hope, emotions flowing, blinding everything, which in the scientific context, believing in something illogical and irrational. it then results in irrational and stupid behavior or thinking. scientifically speaking, with all due respect, no offense intended.
with some investigations, we can diagnose where the pathology is. thats science. but in moral, nothing is absolute. people can lie, and we havent really came up with a device to precisely detect lie levels in human's blood. therefore the etiology wont really be discovered and there are high chances of misdiagnosis.
maybe its karma? i do believe in karma, but the theory there is not so reliable. like, if a person got sick, doesnt mean he's a mean evil dude, right?
anyways, yeah, seems like i have too much time to blabber about these things. haha~
its just that there are a lot of things piling up inside of me. writing it down makes me feel better.
so, i'll sign off for now!
p/s: i hate this patient, X, like X suddenly was diagnosed with a terrible disease and is in denial, and is sad, depressed and totally devastated. and when we tried to help, X doesnt seem so grateful, and X is angry and acted like a total -whatever-. scientifically, its a normal reaction of sad people in denial. but morally, its just ungrateful and mean. like we tried to help X, but X didnt really want to accept it. one-way feeling will never work!
ciao~
1 comment:
Hmm...
...What does A want from B? What does B want from A? Are you sure that they want X and Y, respectively?
Now, what if... they don't want to get X and Y, but they want to give X and Y? What if all they want is the other's happiness?
What if, what if, what if... There's really no end to how much you can dissect emotions. Some people hate love because they were hurt by it, some enjoy love because they were made happy by it-- whose fault is it that some enjoy it and some don't?
Whose fault is it that issues weren't resolved?
SOOO many questions to ask... and when it comes down to it, the two people who are in love know the answers best. All we can do is hope they know wtf they're doin' :D
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