first, thank God, my flight ticket thingy has settled, so I'll be going home next week~ yay!
Before that, EXAM! from Monday till Thursday! Its been quite a while since we had clinical exams, now I can freshly recall the fear it created when we first experienced those exams in our 3rd year.
So, am I ready? am I scared?
I'm terrified! reading is not a problem, remembering the facts and all is. with panic, sometimes my mind goes blank, thus creating a positive feedback of more fear. Thanks to my family's and my friend's words of support, they unfortunately only help a bit XD, coz in the midst of exam panic, little could be done to calm me down. the panic seems to crush my ever-so-little confidence to begin with. but yeah, I'm still thankful for all the support.
So, I hope my friends and I will do well, in this exam as well as becoming a really safe doctor in the future! good luck everyone!
Sunday, August 23, 2009
stupid airlines service!
Booking a flight ticket seems to be a freaking pain in the ass!!!
Like, seriously? it dared tempt me in this high pressure situation??! >.<
Like, seriously? it dared tempt me in this high pressure situation??! >.<
Friday, August 21, 2009
welcoming ramadhan!! (you dont have to read the long rant XD)
Hai! Ramadhan is here, tomorrow, we're gonna start fasting! yay~
(hopes everything is said correctly XD)
anyway, suddenly just now, I kinda have a homesick episode. Reaaaally miss my family. Its been a while that I've spent a long time with my family. Its always a 1-2 week break (only a year or 2 ago that I had a long end-of-year-holiday) for the past 4 years of college, and the same goes to my school days (though the holidays here were less frequent however longer than my college days).
being away from my family, there are loads of pros and cons. the cons, its always hard, i'm kinda the mummy's girl so I get homesick quite a lot of times, most of the time I have to really struggle to adapt to the environments and all. the pros, mostly bittersweet, learning about new things in the cruel world out there, standing on your own two feet, being under harsh situations without much help from others (is thankful for some supportive friends). they have made me who I am right now, I think.
perhaps, in my future life, I wont want to send my kids to boarding schools. I realized that I've spent too little time with my family, maybe this will stay the same in the future. I dont really like this actually, despite all the benefits it gave me for all this while.
ANYWAYS! the fasting month! it makes me to recall the first time when we moved and settled in Mukah. it was just a small village back then, in 1996, if I'm not mistaken, I was just 10 years old? i kinda love the peacefulness that the village has, no traffic jams, the air is clean, even the now-polluted beach water was clean back then.
what I REALLY hate about that village is the people's mentality. especially the old ladies who were like the self-proclaimed leaders of the village, controlling everything. they're just a bunch of hypocrites, with badmouthing people as hobbies. so, in my young age, I was taught that honor is everything, even when you have to pretend to be nice, humble and friendly to others. If you dont smile to people, you're a bad person, if you compliment your hard work, you're showing off, you know, negative stuff like that. how narrow-minded they were! i also hate their not so funny jokes, mostly about degrading some people. what i couldnt forget till now is when they badmouthed my family really bad just because i wasnt "friendly" (like, as if i was gonna smile at everyone who's walking pass me :P). gosh, how stupid was that? like, a fight against a 10-year-old?so, at the young age, I learned hatred, wrath and vengeance.
oops, sorry, isnt supposed to say all bad things in the fasting month. its just that it brings back memories to me, because at the fasting month when i was a kid, we always went to the surau with my family to perform tarawih, and in the surau, there were those old ladies, and i was taught to pretend to be all smiley and nice to every-freaking-one, basically just doing what they want me to behave, which i really hate to do, thus, even until now, i dread the moment when i have to go to that surau. *what a traumatic childhood XD*
anyways, now that I'm all grown up, like hell am I gonna care about what they think of me. its all their fault for giving me such bad early impressions :P i think they still remain the same though, those old ladies, though some of them has had stroke and has been inactive, despite the developing town. perhaps, their reign of terror is over :P.
so yeah, how nostalgic that feels~ sorry for the soooo long of a post, cant help myself from ranting, revealing those old ugly skeletons i've kept in my closet. exam stress could be the trigger too XD
anyways, finally, HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIMS~~!! hope we have a blessed Ramadhan this year~ <3
(hopes everything is said correctly XD)
anyway, suddenly just now, I kinda have a homesick episode. Reaaaally miss my family. Its been a while that I've spent a long time with my family. Its always a 1-2 week break (only a year or 2 ago that I had a long end-of-year-holiday) for the past 4 years of college, and the same goes to my school days (though the holidays here were less frequent however longer than my college days).
being away from my family, there are loads of pros and cons. the cons, its always hard, i'm kinda the mummy's girl so I get homesick quite a lot of times, most of the time I have to really struggle to adapt to the environments and all. the pros, mostly bittersweet, learning about new things in the cruel world out there, standing on your own two feet, being under harsh situations without much help from others (is thankful for some supportive friends). they have made me who I am right now, I think.
perhaps, in my future life, I wont want to send my kids to boarding schools. I realized that I've spent too little time with my family, maybe this will stay the same in the future. I dont really like this actually, despite all the benefits it gave me for all this while.
ANYWAYS! the fasting month! it makes me to recall the first time when we moved and settled in Mukah. it was just a small village back then, in 1996, if I'm not mistaken, I was just 10 years old? i kinda love the peacefulness that the village has, no traffic jams, the air is clean, even the now-polluted beach water was clean back then.
what I REALLY hate about that village is the people's mentality. especially the old ladies who were like the self-proclaimed leaders of the village, controlling everything. they're just a bunch of hypocrites, with badmouthing people as hobbies. so, in my young age, I was taught that honor is everything, even when you have to pretend to be nice, humble and friendly to others. If you dont smile to people, you're a bad person, if you compliment your hard work, you're showing off, you know, negative stuff like that. how narrow-minded they were! i also hate their not so funny jokes, mostly about degrading some people. what i couldnt forget till now is when they badmouthed my family really bad just because i wasnt "friendly" (like, as if i was gonna smile at everyone who's walking pass me :P). gosh, how stupid was that? like, a fight against a 10-year-old?so, at the young age, I learned hatred, wrath and vengeance.
oops, sorry, isnt supposed to say all bad things in the fasting month. its just that it brings back memories to me, because at the fasting month when i was a kid, we always went to the surau with my family to perform tarawih, and in the surau, there were those old ladies, and i was taught to pretend to be all smiley and nice to every-freaking-one, basically just doing what they want me to behave, which i really hate to do, thus, even until now, i dread the moment when i have to go to that surau. *what a traumatic childhood XD*
anyways, now that I'm all grown up, like hell am I gonna care about what they think of me. its all their fault for giving me such bad early impressions :P i think they still remain the same though, those old ladies, though some of them has had stroke and has been inactive, despite the developing town. perhaps, their reign of terror is over :P.
so yeah, how nostalgic that feels~ sorry for the soooo long of a post, cant help myself from ranting, revealing those old ugly skeletons i've kept in my closet. exam stress could be the trigger too XD
anyways, finally, HAPPY FASTING TO ALL MUSLIMS~~!! hope we have a blessed Ramadhan this year~ <3
Monday, August 17, 2009
where is my fantasy land?
Reality is SOOO harsh, sometimes I feel like I can't take it! how nice if I could just cast away my responsibilities and run far, far away and be FREE!!
If only life is THAT easy!!!!
current mood: melancholy, stressed, hopeless
If only life is THAT easy!!!!
current mood: melancholy, stressed, hopeless
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Graduation ~congrats!~
this weekend has been the graduation event for my sis, and my seniors~ a HUGE congratulations!! I'm SO proud of all of you! though, I've been so busy lately or maybe I was just being an airhead for forgetting such an important event, so I didnt attend the graduation ceremony of my seniors! soo SORRY about that! I wish I could be with my sister at her graduation day too!!wish I could give them this kinda cake~ cool, ne??
Friday, August 14, 2009
Maou
Synopsis from DramaWiki - Maou
This drama is a remake of the popular suspense drama The Devil that was aired in Korea last year. Ohno Satoshi will be playing the role of a two-faced lawyer, one of which is a kind hearted soul and the other who is plotting revenge, using his brilliant mind, on the person who killed his relative. On the other hand, Ikuta Toma will play the double lead role of the man, who has become a detective due to his dark past, who is pursuing the mysterious series of murders and fighting against the devil (maou).
hum... overall, the story's quite good, nice performance from Ohno Satoshi and Ikuta Toma~ the story's quite serious and some very tear-jerking. though I cant help but get annoyed with some things:
1. the detectives were getting help from a psychic girl who could see "afterimage" of objects - this i think is like an unnecessary addition. I dunno, its just me, i just dont like seeing something not scientific in investigations i guess.
2. when someone's being stabbed/shot/bleeding/dying, wont anyone has the reflex to try as hard as they can to save that someone?? its just not this drama, most drama is like that, like when they see someone being stabbed/shot/bleeding/dying, they just scream or cry beside those wounded people. like, even if i dunno "ABC", i'd just call ambulance or help or something. and people dont just die immediately from a stab wound at the stomach from a 2x5 cm pocketknife.
3. when someone got mad and they started screaming to get their point across -really annoying-
sorry to the drama fans that im being such a spoilsport XD. but seriously, i cant help but to roll my eyes in those annoying scenes.
this drama mostly ventured into the dark side of human. its true that in every human there is a bit of evil, and its kinda like the job of the devil to make human go to the path of darkness. and its also about the balance of defending justice and revenge.
since kakkoi, evil, smart guy is so irresistable to me, I really love Naruse Ryou/Manaka Tomoo here, love the ending, I think it put a nice closure to this character. besides! I really love their hairstyle, no one can do the Japanese guy hairdo other than Japanese guys! and I really love the well-groomed metrosexual look of Naruse-san~ <3
ah, anyways, yeah, overall, i'd give this drama 7/10!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
my c00kery
bored, stress, cheap, leading to one of my biggest guilty pressure : FOOD!
made those last few days~ hai dozo~
1. onigiri~~
its my first time making it, I made some from some leftover rice. the onigiri that i made were quite small, and its really hard because the rice kept on "cracking". though, they tasted kinda nice plus its very economical! ^.^v
2. instant mac n cheese with scrambled egg
minus milk n butter that are usually added in the instant macncheese (so, less guilt XD) n minus oil from the scrambled egg (thanks to Mel's very effective non-stick pan!
and thats all for now~ jaa~
made those last few days~ hai dozo~
1. onigiri~~
its my first time making it, I made some from some leftover rice. the onigiri that i made were quite small, and its really hard because the rice kept on "cracking". though, they tasted kinda nice plus its very economical! ^.^v
2. instant mac n cheese with scrambled egg
minus milk n butter that are usually added in the instant macncheese (so, less guilt XD) n minus oil from the scrambled egg (thanks to Mel's very effective non-stick pan!
and thats all for now~ jaa~
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
the precioussssss ~shiawase, ne~
Yatta! it finally rained~! it started raining yesterday night~ ah~ its like the best feeling EVER!!!!
I even recorded the pre-storm breeze and all. like, seriously!! this is like the biggest happiness i've ever experienced! the first rain is precioussss! SO SO PRECIOUSSSSS, my love~! XD
here is some video of the windy night, my feeling at that time was undescribable!! *this video was taken from our balcony XD*
and then, the rain came. i was delirious with pure bliss. i took a pic of the first rain, the droplets being caught by the flash is just SO beautiful!
today, its still a bit hazy, seems like the haze is too heavy to be washed away by an episode of rain. its gonna take a lot of rain to wash it all away. sometimes the "before rain smell" is taken over the haze smell. well, i'm not complaining though, the rain has been a really marvelous blessing. this morning, i even woke up with a comforter on me! its been a reaaaaally long time that i ever needed one! and the whole day has been so comfy. no more unmerciful glaring heat from the sun. I really love rain!!
only one con is that the night is so cold that the bed is so tempting! its totally not good for our study, especially when the exam is so near! ganbatte minna-san! X3
I even recorded the pre-storm breeze and all. like, seriously!! this is like the biggest happiness i've ever experienced! the first rain is precioussss! SO SO PRECIOUSSSSS, my love~! XD
here is some video of the windy night, my feeling at that time was undescribable!! *this video was taken from our balcony XD*
and then, the rain came. i was delirious with pure bliss. i took a pic of the first rain, the droplets being caught by the flash is just SO beautiful!
today, its still a bit hazy, seems like the haze is too heavy to be washed away by an episode of rain. its gonna take a lot of rain to wash it all away. sometimes the "before rain smell" is taken over the haze smell. well, i'm not complaining though, the rain has been a really marvelous blessing. this morning, i even woke up with a comforter on me! its been a reaaaaally long time that i ever needed one! and the whole day has been so comfy. no more unmerciful glaring heat from the sun. I really love rain!!
only one con is that the night is so cold that the bed is so tempting! its totally not good for our study, especially when the exam is so near! ganbatte minna-san! X3
Sunday, August 9, 2009
heat wave
Kuching has been so hazy recently. its been very VERY hot, with haze - meaning hazy vision and the smoke-y smell that i hate so much, *thanks to human and development, we've succeeded in disrupting the ecosystem*. and totally no rain. oh, how i miss rain!in this hot weather, the pros:
- your laundry dries up fast
- no worries about flooding in our fac
cons
- its HOT
yeah, its been really hot! i have to shower more frequently now and i have to change very often from the sweat, so my laundry pile is getting bigger and bigger! and i really hate it when i had to wake up in the middle of a sleep/nap because its too hot and i was sweating too much! its so uncomfortable! really want to have an air conditioner now!!! or a swimming pool or even a bath tub!!! >.< 
aah~ the water looks so cool, ne~?? *jealous!!!!*ALSO, i have quite a labile mood. its understandable, ne? like the heat is making me feel so uncomfortable and un-energized, thus making me more fragile. i really get irritated/pissed off/mad/distressed/sad/depressed pretty easily nowadays. i dont wanna frown so much! it'd cause premature wrinkles!
especially when someone said something really stupid beyond my understanding. grr... even thinking of how they think really irritates me! waaay underestimating me, waaaay overestimating them =.= anyways, gotta go back to study now, we're having an exam in 2 weeks. I really hope there will be some rain! amiin~
funny "hot weather" cartoon can be viewed at http://www.cartoonstock.com/directory/h/hot_weather.asp
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