woken up by an idiot

im quite pissed off. im certainly not a fan of waking up in the morning, but woken up by a phone thats ringing its heart out 3 times, its really waking up the monster in me. it was my little sister's phone, and i answered it. it was a guy named Adi. calling my sister 3 times in the freaking morning. doesnt he have a freaking brain? my sister was out to school! and when no one answered the phone for 3 times, it means that the person doesnt wanna talk to you or they're freaking not there!

im certainly not going "protective mama bear" towards this guy calling my little sister. i only would like to kill idiot guys who are going near her.

now, time to have breakfast and calm down.

*i eat idiots for breakfast*

Summary on my holiday XD

sorry bloggie for neglecting you since forever! I guess I'm just pathologically lazy XD.

anyways, an update from me~

its a holiday after we've finished our 4th year. I PASSED~ and next week we're gonna enter the 5th and FINAL year! excited and freaked at the same time!

we've also done our elective posting in Terengganu, also we had a superb vacation, going to Lake Kenyir, Redang Island and some nice places in Terengganu.


I love the food, especially keropok lekor and the seafood there. I think Terengganu is a land of food, because its like everywhere you see on the street, there are food stalls or restaurants and anything to do with food!

and the beach is SO nice! we had SO much fun flying the kites XD.


and the hospital was really nice, with really nice staffs and patients. its quite hard to find such friendly staffs in hospitals!


then, we stayed at my mom's ex-teacher's relative's house for the duration of 4 weeks. quite many bittersweet memories there. we felt really sad to leave the house because we've already felt like families with those people.


then, we went to KL, and i stayed at sarah's house. we went to the zoo, went shopping, movies, and ice skating! its my first time, so i cant really call it as "skating" more like trying to walk on ice and holding on to something/someone XD. and i fell once and its REALLY hard to get up! *thanks to a knight in shining whatever who helped me when Mel couldnt help XD* i always want to do good on everything so when i felt like its SO freaking hard, its just so frustrating! oh well, im gonna have to learn some rollerskating so that i could learn to balance better on those freaky footwear XD.


and last wednesday, I went back to Kuching and on thursday, I headed back to Mukah~ its been a long time since i went home, so im now enjoying every moment in my house with my family. Aya-chan's getting cuter and cuter! she now knows to say some words and follow some simple instructions, however, she also now knows how to throw a tantrum to get what she wants. having kids is cute, but the tantrums and crying are quite unbearable! XD

anyways, yeah, thats it for my summary for my holiday. i cant wait for another vacation! (uh, but that will be after we've finished and passed the FINAL year exam!! O.O)

perception and hatred

People said first impressions are everlasting. May be true, may be not. Some people expose everything about themselves at the very first moment, and some takes time to peel off their layers.

Perception.. is easily manipulated by emotions and any other factors (like physical stress, illness etc). We perceive what we want to think it is. Like, when we love someone, everything he/she does is wonderful and all, and every negative things are deemed as mistakes or lessons that could be learned and improved.

When we hate people, or try to hate one, everything they do is viewed as negative stuff. Sometimes I tried to not be judgmental or anything, but too much is just too much, until there's a time that I don't care anymore. That'd be the time I decided to hate everything about that person no matter what it is. No more second chance.

and Hate, is a powerful thing. People hide things, people lie, people pretend. Why? Sometimes people are afraid that others might come to hate them when they know the truth. and why do we care so much about others hating us? I dont really care about people whom I dont care hating me, but people that I care about, of course I dont want them to hate me. Why? because I wanna be with those people, I want to be a part of their lives, I wanna help them, I want them to help me, or anything.

sometimes hatred can also be used as an escape route. like, I hate everything about you. get lost from my life and dont ever come back! or something like that.

or some hypocrite people just love to pretend so that people love and accept them. they care so much about what people think that they turn into somebody that they're not. i really hate those people who talk the talk but didnt walk the walk. mean what you're saying! dont go like, "omg, she wears the shortest skirt ever, thats SO sinful! she'll burn in hell!" and you go like making out with every guy you've met.

though sometimes, faking things are necessary, like to avoid unnecessary non-fatal itsy-bitsy but awkward moments. like, avoiding some annoying things while you plan for the final escape route. i hate pretending though, it could be really exhausting. oh well, im a free spirit, i love letting myself free or whatever XD.

anyways, yeah, im just rambling again. need some sleep. jaa~

outwit blindside outplay blindside outlast blindside

yup, its the latest season of survivor, this time, its at Tocantins, the Brazilian highlands~
I've watched till episode 11 and its like, one of the greatest season of survivor history!

first, the participants this time are made of very very different characteristics and personalities. they're really colorful and crazy! I kinda like Tyson for being a super good competitor and strategist, and he's funny and arrogant and cuckoo but he's kinda like a nudist, so beware kids. and other characters, i just love the craziness! the true and ugly natures of human are always exposed in reality shows, and of course, mostly on Survivor! much better than fiction!

then, there are SOOO many game plans and blindsides, its SUPER crazy! making alliances, deceits and all, I dunno which one to believe and which not to believe! like seriously, there are quite a lot of surprising votes at the tribal council. I really love surprises!

though some people are really annoying, especially Coach! OMG! I've never met anyone THAT crazy! I really do think that he has some kind of a psychological problem. like he kept telling obvious, obvious lies, like being dropped off by the army at the Amazon jungle, being captured by some tribe, being tortured by them with clubs until near death, escaping because there were loose ropes, then paddling with a kayak away from the dangerous tribe thingy! like, how crazy is that??! and he likes saying all those philosophies and sayings, like samurai or whatever, so that he'd look like, wiser or something, and always meditating or whatever. like, gosh, if thats not psychological i dunno what it is. I SO want him out next!

and I LOVE J.T.~ he's really strong and all, and he's kinda nice except when he's blindsiding people (lol). he's like southern and he owns a ranch, and he admits he's a hillbilly and stuff. he's really cool in the challenges and i think its kinda the first time that I think Southern accent are actually sexy XD. (but Sandy, and old lady that voted out really early also has a Southern accent but she's totally uncool!)

anyways, Survivor's really AWESOME! I cant wait to watch the next episode. Go J.T.~! \^o^/

~just a boring update~

hi there, long time no see~ i have been neglecting this blog..huhu
i know, im lazy! but i kinda feel like im obliged to update this blog regularly.

anyways, nothing much has happened. this week has been pretty busy, since the midwife students are gone, so we have no competitors for conducting deliveries at the labor ward, so most of our targets have been filled in. i only need ONE more delivery! its SOO cool!

and, we havent really explore terengganu all that much, i'd love to see more new places and all that. being curious and adventurous arent everyone's cup of tea. please dont go on a vacation with these people. XD

to me, though, travelling is vital. i have a goal to travel all around the world after i start working. i'd save money and when im FILTHY rich (lol, i wish!), i wont have any problem vacationing to wherever i want to go (maybe even going on five-star vacations XD). we live only once, i wanna see/experience as much as i could in this one earth.

also, i hate to whine, but i really need shopping. im seriously withering without a dose of retail therapy for so long :(

oh and, i've just finished watching house epi 20! wow! something shocking happened! kinda sad too! cant wait to watch the next episode!!! why oh why?!