the first time I cut somebody

“I'm Not a Cookie Cutter. I Cut the Cookies. And I'll Cut You.” -goth tyra

anyways, yesterday, I did my first Caesarean section. its a procedure housemen are encouraged to do while they're in ObGyn posting here in Miri Hospital. and of course, I wouldn't want to miss such a huge opportunities as such!

so yeah, yesterday I got my chance, so I did it under supervision of my MO. standing at the surgeon's side of the table, I kinda feel like a star, like the surgery is my first ever performance. I was sooo nervous before the op, and couldnt help thinking of the worst possible things. I know it sounds reaaaally dramatic, but yeah, its my first surgery, so its kinda a big deal for me :P

so yeah, I did it in like 55 minutes, with estimated blood loss of 400cc, which is pretty good for a first timer. and really, much thanks to my MO, Dr. Nazihah, who's really helpful in supervising me.

God, I'm sooo thankful to be given the chance to top-up my knowledge and experience. I so love myself right now. lol

I'm soooo drained!

god, I'm sooo freaking tired. I've been having oncalls for every 2 days since forever. Like, I literally lives in the hospital, I practically had to buy a large size shower gel to last for a month. I had nightmares hearing CTGs and all. though, post calls gave me the vampire look, i could beat edward cullen for the dark eyes and the supposedly cool frown :P

anyways, its just REAALLY unbelievable that I'm going to finish O&G posting (I hope so, my specialist keep on postponing the assessment and its been driving me crazy!)

so yeah, I hope against all hope I'll pass the assessment! well, now I'll have to think about preparing a farewell party and speech~! :P

Langkawi belated update~

so yeah, I just got back from Langkawi~ not really "just", I went to langkawi from 12-16 feb.
we had quite a terrible start, with the Bella Vista hotel receptionist, who said our booking was not valid bla bla bla, and made me and Amy waited for half a day in the lobby for a booking we couldnt cancel, and made us have bitch fits in a few more stupid occasions. and we noticed they treated overseas tourists waaaay better than us. like we're sooo not valuable and all. oh, and there was no irons in the room because they have an ironing room that hotel occupants had to go to, to iron their clothes. whats this? a boarding house or something?? Bella Vista hotel review: big time SUCKS!!

anywaaaays, enough of the bitchiness~
thanks to my BFFs, I had a really good time in Langkawi~ its the company that matters, right?
so yeah, we went to the historical sites (climbed like 600 steps up the Telaga Tujuh waterfall), the cable car and the hanging bridge (which has the awesomest sceneries of all!), went island hopping (parasailing rocks! and of course, the scenic lovely islands), and of course, as tourists, we had the license to shop for souvenirs~ and some duty-free chocs~ oh, I had my first spa experience. I have low pain tolerance, so for me, its quite excruciating at times, but yeah, its kinda cool. summary of our trip (taken from Mel's blog!):

 

personal and work

its correlated, of course! like, duh, we're just human..

anyways, its been almost half a month in gynae ward. its quite more challenging than in maternity ward, where I can find more variety of cases in gynae ward. i guess i kinda like it.

and I had a kinda good call yesterday, so yeah, I'm happy

and I'm going to see my BFFs tomorrow, so I'm happy~

I feel like nothing can bring me down! :)

some people

some people, they just rub you the wrong way

just by the way they speak, act, dress, look etc etc

man, sometimes i seriously think I'm somewhat an egomaniac bitch who just wants everything to go my way. and seriously, bad fashion sense really annoys me really bad!
hum...i dont really know who triggered my bitch switch. I was always nice and pleasant before, you know (:P)

anyways, everyone has their bitchy moments, lets just let me have mine this time.

thanks

byebye~