Nothing to Lose??

Because sometimes I do think about, what if I care about nothing in the world, living life as it is, no responsibilities, no boundaries, no rules, no bossy bosses, like there's nothing to lose in life.


It sounds free and fun! Like I can do ANYTHING I want, and I wouldn't care less. Unstoppable.



But, unfortunately, life doesn't work that way, honey. The more at stake, the higher the price are. No pain, no gain, labour has a bitter root, but a sweet taste, etc etc. 
and I dont wanna live an empty life. I dont wanna be them. ever!

Its the pain of getting what you want, defending your honour and that makes it all worth while
Having a victory for whats worth fighting for
When we learn how to be strong, sometimes in the hard way
The pride when we know how strong we really are.


So yeah, I absolutely have something to lose in life. I'm gonna fight for it. I will lose some and win some. I hope all of this will make me a better, stronger me!


It's good to be scared. It means you still have something to lose. - Richard Weber, Grey's Anatomy

Sometimes I was dramatique

Sometimes i feel like i want to shout it all out! Sometimes i feel like i just want to be alone. Sometimes i feel like i was so high, im untouchable. Sometimes i feel i hit rock bottom i dont even matter. Sometimes i feel like you totally get me. Sometimes i feel like you dont know me at all. Sometimes im a fighter i'd die kicking. Sometimes im tired of all the fights, i'd just run away.


But its okay. Im feeling all high and low. My feelings are all am dramatic turmoil in me. I tried to be in control most of the times...but sometimes they're just raging and took control over me. Its okay if you dont know me and I dont know you. What life is without the mystery?