when I fell down....
Please allow me some time to cry, to be sad, to dwell in my sorrow
Please allow me some time to lick my wounds
Please allow me some time to heal
Before I pick myself up
Human make mistakes, but is the mistakes all you can see?
Thursday, June 23, 2011
Monday, June 20, 2011
road less taken!
today I took my last dose of Augmentin, which is really great, because I, like other normal people, kinda hate taking pills, especially in my OCD state, I had to follow the time and all that. So, its been a week since I was awfully sick! I love being well again!
Anyway, last weekend, I went to Bintulu for my friend's wedding! I had to drive alone to Bintulu, which would take ~2 1/2 - 3 hours of drive..its kinda scary at first, but when I started driving, I had sooo much fun! Its mildly enlightening, with the sceneries, and my repeated CD play. besides, I took the "old" road, which has less drivers, but the road is quite bumpy and all..but the journey is the most important thing..thats why I love, the road less taken.
anyways, we went to the wedding (congrats to Kunnoe for the wedding!!!), and the fun time was when I met some of my high school friends! and I stayed at Yan's house (thanks Yan for the awesome stay and cute cats!!)
so now, hurm.....back to work... errr...why do I kinda always dislike my job? I need some soul searching to do... haha
Anyway, last weekend, I went to Bintulu for my friend's wedding! I had to drive alone to Bintulu, which would take ~2 1/2 - 3 hours of drive..its kinda scary at first, but when I started driving, I had sooo much fun! Its mildly enlightening, with the sceneries, and my repeated CD play. besides, I took the "old" road, which has less drivers, but the road is quite bumpy and all..but the journey is the most important thing..thats why I love, the road less taken.
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| beginning of the journey! |
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| okay, I totally slow down to get all the pics! pls dont do this anywhere! :P |
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| me with the bride! posing gitewww~ |
anyways, we went to the wedding (congrats to Kunnoe for the wedding!!!), and the fun time was when I met some of my high school friends! and I stayed at Yan's house (thanks Yan for the awesome stay and cute cats!!)
so now, hurm.....back to work... errr...why do I kinda always dislike my job? I need some soul searching to do... haha
Wednesday, June 15, 2011
state of glum
I'm sick and alone... its so depressing
I wanna eat but I lost my appetite
I wanna read but my head's all haywired
I wanna go home, but I'm stuck here
seriously, people said its easy to find friends to laugh with, but friends to cry/whine/bitch with, they're so rare and invaluable. some people are kinda like "blah blah blah, u whine so much and feelings are for looooosers! forget about the worries, we're here to have fun! hahahahahahaha"
and im not saying that we should cry/whine/bitch all the time like the emo people..there has to be a balance in everything!
therefore, I'm not an expressive person in general. I only chose to disclose my feelings to people who're close and precious to me..and heck, I miss them all very much in this dire time.
I wanna eat but I lost my appetite
I wanna read but my head's all haywired
I wanna go home, but I'm stuck here
seriously, people said its easy to find friends to laugh with, but friends to cry/whine/bitch with, they're so rare and invaluable. some people are kinda like "blah blah blah, u whine so much and feelings are for looooosers! forget about the worries, we're here to have fun! hahahahahahaha"
and im not saying that we should cry/whine/bitch all the time like the emo people..there has to be a balance in everything!
therefore, I'm not an expressive person in general. I only chose to disclose my feelings to people who're close and precious to me..and heck, I miss them all very much in this dire time.
Sunday, June 12, 2011
homesick
I have URTI 1 week ago...but just started having fever since yesterday..
n yesterday, the ortho department organized a futsal game, which I joined too, despite being oncall (passive). needless to say, since I'm fully living a sedentary lifestyle, the game seriously beat me. well, its kinda fun during the game (though my stamina's totally zero, and my aim sucks real bad), we laughed and had a great time..it was FUN!
then I went back to hospital, straightaway went to OT for a wound debridement, at that time, I still feel kinda well coz of all the endorphines.
then I slept..and when I woke up, I hurt like, EVERYWHERE! and my fever got worse coz I slept in a room thats too cold. god, its really killing me...since I have chills and rigors since this evening and every movement is excruciating!!!
and I'm all alone coz my housemate is oncall... I really miss my family...someone to take care of me when I'm sick..huhu..
I wish I'll be better tomorrow, because taking a sick leave would mean deducting it from my 8days/4 months leave..*sigh*
God, please heal me..
n yesterday, the ortho department organized a futsal game, which I joined too, despite being oncall (passive). needless to say, since I'm fully living a sedentary lifestyle, the game seriously beat me. well, its kinda fun during the game (though my stamina's totally zero, and my aim sucks real bad), we laughed and had a great time..it was FUN!
then I went back to hospital, straightaway went to OT for a wound debridement, at that time, I still feel kinda well coz of all the endorphines.
then I slept..and when I woke up, I hurt like, EVERYWHERE! and my fever got worse coz I slept in a room thats too cold. god, its really killing me...since I have chills and rigors since this evening and every movement is excruciating!!!
and I'm all alone coz my housemate is oncall... I really miss my family...someone to take care of me when I'm sick..huhu..
I wish I'll be better tomorrow, because taking a sick leave would mean deducting it from my 8days/4 months leave..*sigh*
God, please heal me..
Wednesday, June 8, 2011
hear me, please?
I hate to get pulled in a discussion in which every opinions I have is rejected.
Like, when I tried my best to answer some questions, everything I said is brushed off.
Kinda makes me feel like stupid, and yeah, pretty useless in that group.
Err...I don't get it..why bother asking people to be active in a discussion when you couldn't even listen to other people's opinions?
Like, its a discussion, for God's sake...for people changing "opinions", in case you dunno what that means, it means people's point of view, which may not be a fact, it can be right or wrong.
maybe in their head, I seem to be not knowing about anything... but in my point of view, they are just narrow-minded people, who have 1950's brains.
Urgh..its just NO fun, getting dragged in a discussion with STUBBORN idiots.
Like, when I tried my best to answer some questions, everything I said is brushed off.
Kinda makes me feel like stupid, and yeah, pretty useless in that group.
Err...I don't get it..why bother asking people to be active in a discussion when you couldn't even listen to other people's opinions?
Like, its a discussion, for God's sake...for people changing "opinions", in case you dunno what that means, it means people's point of view, which may not be a fact, it can be right or wrong.
maybe in their head, I seem to be not knowing about anything... but in my point of view, they are just narrow-minded people, who have 1950's brains.
Urgh..its just NO fun, getting dragged in a discussion with STUBBORN idiots.
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